Twilight. Another ending.

2010-05-17T16:21:00.007+08:00

于是乎,
因为他的一句以学业为重.
我就这样不被需要了.

也好,
因为我也犹豫着要如何告诉你.

所以,
一切都回到原点.
没了早安的讯息.
没了晚安的讯息.
我们之间就没了'我想你'这个用词.

我该庆幸自己从一开始就没有相信你的永远.
就如我所说的. '永远', 这两个字并不在我人生字典里存在.
要是我还像以前那样傻傻的.
我想我一定会天真地相信你说的这辈子只爱我一个人.
天真地以为你会等我一辈子.

真可笑! 男人都爱用甜言蜜语.
算了, 下次找个女朋友吧. 呵呵~ 开玩笑.
我承认我曾喜欢上女生. 可是就只是那么一瞬间而已.
好久没用华语写东西了. 现在的文笔差了好多. :'(
也许是因为没灵感?!

从此再也不会有公主爱上平民/骑士的可能性.
因为, 公主始终还是属于完美的王子. XD

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我还是天真地以为他会等我一辈子. *哭.
我还是天真地以为他会一直待在我身边.
我还是天真地以为他这辈子最爱还是我.
我还是天真地以为他属于我的.一直都是.

最后我才发现好像只有我独自儿在伤心.
所以说,这是爱吗? 我不懂. *伤脑筋.*哭.

我在这儿伤心郁闷, 是因为我没有挽留你的理由.

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所以,现在我被你说成我逼你, 像是你欠我一样.
我可以说, 我没有. 我从没想过. 却被误会成这样.
此刻的心情犹如万箭般刺进我心里, 真叫我难受!
违背诺言的是你. 食言的又是你. 说谎的又是你.
可是一切MS 是我的错一样. 天天和你说对不起.
是你说可以向你诉苦, 到头来. 还是说不能.
关心你, 担心你. 却被说成干扰你的个人生活.
好吧, 再见...

也许, 有天你发现这个的时候, 你才会发觉你错怪我了.
*虽然不知道何时.

*所以形同陌路是你的选择.

2010-03-31T14:41:00.002+08:00

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2010-02-01T21:54:00.003+08:00

2009-12-28T20:37:00.006+08:00

当喜欢一个人，到了要用回忆来记住他的好时，那么这段感情……就已经没有必要存在。

不是我不爱你，是你根本从没爱过我。

有时候我会想，你不是我的唯一。我的世界不是只为你绕着转。

看着朋友，一对对的情侣。有时候我会很羡慕。因为，我的心好像一直在封闭着。无法为任何人打开。

那个。我是不是不适合做别人的女朋友？我并没有想象中的那么好。

我要的不是短暂的爱情。我要的是天长地久。两个人真心相爱。

我爱幻想。我爱浪漫。我，要得很多。你给得起么？

要是，我无法陶出我的真心来付出。那么我就得不到属于我的真爱？

你给的爱，太沉重。你说，你故意的。因为，这样你才能存在我心里。让我时时挂念你。

要是，我爱你。你爱我。是两个人的事情。也许，爱情会是很简单的数学题。

我爱你。这三个字。我不会轻易说出口。因为我无法为我的承诺作出兑现。

不要轻易爱上我。我是自我主义的人。若是真爱我，请接受我的缺点。

向往童话故事般的爱情。王子与公主。永远相爱在一起。

2009-12-26T00:00:00.013+08:00

TVXQ! Always Keep The Faith

1226. TVXQ’s 6 years anniversary. It has been a long time never see you guys on the stage because of you guys’ lawsuit against SM.Entertainment. I can’t do anything on its, but I can refuse to buy anything goodies from SM. Seeing those Bigeasts [Japanese fans] and Cassiopeias [Korean fans] co-operate together against SM.Entertainment. Sometimes, I feel so disappointed why Malaysian Fans can’t do it the same. Break Out Japanese single will be realease on 27 Jan 2010. Every fans of TVXQ co-operate together to buy the single to reach the sales high to 500 thousands. There has 3 version. First, Bigeast version. Second, DVD + CD version. Third, CD + photobook version. I pre-order Bigeast version ones. We want to break the record in Oricon Chart and refuse to buy Mirotic Concert DVD from SM.Entertainment. We don’t want the DVD but TVXQ. We just want them. Cassiopeia and Bigeast always stand by TVXQ. Never be apart.

I found one poem that written by one of the China fans. Read it in Cassiopeia star shape, which is W. It’s a nice poem I ever read.

传说在遥远的日出东方

满绽着朝霞的地方之上

座落着爱之女神的殿堂

阳光普照燃起希望之光

金灿灿将我心镀成微黄

于是我们一直痴痴渴望

但只不过朝朝暮暮回想

却畏惧前方的旅途茫茫

流尽青葱岁月猗郁时光

谁言四季齐殇悲短流长

谁将我碎的心揉进月光

像孩童们银铃般的嬉笑

珍宝般地永久闪耀不息

即使只是远远随意一瞥

也铸就了如此坚定的心

在这广袤无垠的信念里

是你含笑将我的手携起

我能感觉到你宽厚的手

牵引着我走过年华六季

走过狂傲问天的年少时

一路磕磕撞撞历经风霜

穿越了迷茫经过了悲怆

只残存下风雨沧桑面庞

只不过雨过之后是晴朗

无需仙子那神奇的点化

今后的少年也不再迷惘

神殿依旧屹于日出东方

那起伏的云仍自由飘荡

亦如同昨日般镀着金光

诺亚方舟是传说的希望
而你与我共进便是力量

救世主传播济世的宝藏

机握住你的手不愿松开

不愿把微笑写在离别里

记忆中的长河奔腾不息

说好要一起就永不离弃

Ain’t it nice and special ?

6 Years Anniversary Picture designed by Princess Ching Yee.

We are one ! Eternally ! by Micky YooChun.

TVXQ!

Cassiopeia

Bigeast

Always Keep The Faith. Stand By You.

2009-12-25T11:52:00.005+08:00

在圣诞节, 这个特别的日子里. 我只想与你度过.
平平淡淡的圣诞节, 因为有你待在我身边. 我觉得很幸福.
早上起来, 一睁开眼睛就能见到你. 我很开心.
对你说的第一句话,不是圣诞节快乐. 而是, 我爱你.
原来, 再次重逢的感觉还是心跳不已.

我们无须言语. 只要静静地坐着. 看着彼此.
都能感受到, 空气中无形间形成的一道爱的吊桥.
传送着彼此之间爱的讯息. 我爱你, 亲爱的.
在特别的日子里.我只想对你说.我爱你.圣诞节快乐.
因为爱你,所以我很幸福.请你待在我身边,因为我想要幸福下去.

圣诞节. 我们之间爱的密语. 有着不能说的秘密.
亲爱的. 你, 就是我最好的圣诞礼物. 我爱你.

2009-12-24T16:22:00.005+08:00

I'm Back.

Merry Christmas :D

Merry Christmas to all my dearest friends.

I miss you guys and girls. Especially, my primary school classmates. Sorry, I can't make it with you guys to Cameron Highland. HAHA. Kern Hui, I know you want me to go la. That's why you said you willing to be my slave during the trip. Sorry, guys. Enjoy your trip without me.

I miss you too, 5SB. When are we going out again ? Can't wait to meet you guys. I know you guys miss me a lot since I have six sense.

Minda Ceria's gang. Cartene, Mabel, Zhen Jin, Ee leng, Wy-quin and Yi lin. Merry Christmas and I miss you girls. Oops, Wy-Quin is a guy. Wy-quin, when are you going to hold a gathering? after Zhen Jin back from Europe? and, Mabel back from NS?

My Smile

2009-12-17T22:55:00.007+08:00

Do you love me? or you just love my smile?
I know. I know you love my smile.
I know. I know my smile is so attractive,
that always grabs your attention from others.
I know. This is why I always smile.

This is the reason. AND, its because of YOU.

Please, just look at me.
Your eyes, looking into mine….
I want to keep looking at them.

As soon as we apart, I want to see u again...

2009-12-16T18:21:00.004+08:00

SHUT THE F*** UP !!!

ISH !! Yesterday,I was so angry until wanna slaughter everyone. Why on earth I wanna be so kind to share everything to my friends?? Why are they being such a jerk ??? Didn't they purposely doing that behind me ?? They did admit to me they were purposely doing that and gave me an advice, that, not to trust anyone so easily even though your FRIENDS. So, I just dissapointed on what they had done to me. Yet, I still convince myself that they are my friends so just let go everything like nothing happens before. I should be evil, selfish, or anything else towards them right ?? * Sigh. Just leave me alone, please.

2009-12-15T09:30:00.008+08:00

14.12.2009

6H's gathering at 'Look Out Point'...

To be continued...
waiting for my friends to upload those photos.

对你的思念，透过不同的季节传达给你。

2009-12-15T09:30:00.006+08:00

那一夜。你深邃的眼神。深深吸引我。

那一夜。我彻底的失眠。满脑子是你。

你看着我的眼神。你对我说话的语气。

你对我的温柔。一直停留在我脑海里。

你，踏上天空的云端。在飞翔。

我，站在这里某个角落。等你。

你，在世界的另一端。感受着冬天的到来。

我，一直都站在原处。度过没有你的夏天。

我在想。要是哪天，我们重逢了。

我有勇气对你诉说我心里的话吗？

我想，我们之间应该没可能。

你说，我们之间有可能吗？

想念你。喜欢你。等你回来。

Belated Birthday Suprise !!!

2009-12-09T19:25:00.005+08:00

Firstly, thanks to Yuan Ling, Yuen Xing, Teong Geng, Joon Kit, Nicholas, Daniel and Xue Min.Thanks for the celebration at HAEGAN-DAZS.

I was so suprised. The staff held the birthday cake and came in front of me all of a sudden. I stunned at there. I thought it was other people birthday since my birthday is 1 week ago. They sang a birthday song to me. Cool ~~ actually, I didn't really focus on what they sang. Sorry, it was too suprised for me. I always wonder how would it be if my friends gave me a suprise on my birthday, since I had planned on many birthday's suprise for my friends... I thought I would know if they are planning for it. But, I lose. This was too suprised for me. No wonder they kept going to toilet one by one. I asked Yuanling why they were doing at toilet. She told me they went to do their BIG BUSINESS. Why I never noticed they were writing some greeting words on the birthday card? HAHA. I'm so happy today. I wonder who was the one told them I want an ice-cream for my birthday. I told someone but not my gang, though, I forgot the person. I have a long time never eat ice-cream cake already. It was so nice and tasty.

Anyway, Thanks everyone. I know this celebration costs everyone an arm and leg.

Here are the photos.

My birthday cake.

Cut it into slices. AND. This is mine.

Yuen Xing, Yuan Ling, Me and Teong Geng.

Joon Kit, Me, Daniel, Nicholas and Xue Min

Thanks my friends.

hmmph... forgot what this called.

Nicholas likes this. HAHA.

This is me a.k.a Princess.

Finally, DONE !!

* Guys, next time we go to eat Haegan-Dazs Buffet together.

2009-12-06T17:57:00.004+08:00

2.12.2009. 5个人一起的舞台.

看着你的笑容, 我哭了.

金在中,

看着你那皮笑肉不笑的笑容, 我心疼.

你们何时成了这个模样?

我一直以为你们都好好的.

是我忽略了你们么??

怎么个个比之前还看起来要憔悴??

金俊秀, 朴有天, 金在中, 沈昌珉, 郑允浩.

这5个人的位置, 我一直记在心中.

东方神起, 加油! 我相信你们一定可以的!!

2009-12-02T01:07:00.007+08:00

TODAY IS PRINCESS'S BIRTHDAY !!

I'm seeing all those birthday wishes keep popping out on my FB wall from yesterday morning until now... I'm so glad and Thanks to all those friends who had wished me. Guys, Thanks. I'm going to count all those wishes and list down all the names here after Physics Paper since I'm good at Chemistry, So, no need to revise first.HAHA. [ aku sangat sombong, kan? ]

Today is my birthday but I am going to study PHYSICS all day. Lembaga Peperiksaan!! Why wants the Physics Paper falls on the day after my BIRTHDAY? Don't you know the day before PHYSICS PAPER is Princess's birthday??? What a IMPORTANT DAY and you TREAT me like this?? I feel lazy to study PHYSICS although I want to get an A for it. Who is going to give me a birthday kiss and hug?? Who is going to give me a suprise?? Who is going to give me a present ?? HAHA. I'm anticipating and waiting for it. Goodnight, Guys !!

To Be Continued....

3.12.2009

Celebration with Ka Hoe, Belamy, Kar Mun, Jhie Hao, Mei xue and Ming Yi...

2009-11-10T15:05:00.006+08:00

I'm not free to update my blog this MONTH, which I'm going to sit for my THE EXAM -- SPM.

See you guys after SPM.

From : Princess Ching Yee.

Heart-Broken

2009-11-06T12:57:00.009+08:00

Everything in my heart collapsed after saw this photo.I thought I can stand for it.Well, obviously I can't. T_T Kim Jae Joong, sometimes I wonder, if I've never met you, how's my life would be ? Kim Jae Joong, my heart broken.

My First Love

2009-11-01T11:05:00.010+08:00

第一次爱的人. 我把这篇献给你.

今早, 翻开了几年前我亲手写上属于我们的日记本. 看着我们一路走来, 从陌生到相爱...从朋友升格为情人的点点滴滴. 我才发现, 我已自动性选择遗忘了我们的过去. 原来,当时的我是那么的爱你. 即使为你飞蛾灭火也再所不惜. 回忆起过去, 我们两个真的是笨蛋. 选择伤害人, 选择被伤害. 我曾有那么一点恨你. 恨你, 违背我们之间的诺言. 恨你, 背叛我. 不说一声, 就转身离去, 投向另一个她的怀抱. 呵呵. 放心吧! 我已释怀. 要不然, 我怎么现在还可以坦然和你说话, 当你是朋友呢? 嗯, 我们确实有一整年, 选择漠视对方的存在. 因为某种事情, 我们再次又了联系. 别想歪, 写这篇文不是想和你复合还是什么的. 我只是纯粹的想知道, 想彼此之间, 找个时间好好的坐下来谈谈这件事. 还记得4年前, 你答应我的事情么? 呵呵. 你会遵守么? 我, 选择解除那个承诺. 即使, 我们已打钩钩要一起实现的. 可, 我不想了. 你也一样, 不是么? 可笑的是, 前几天, 你被我逼着要叫我一声公主殿下. 哈哈. 笑翻了. 你竟然照做,而且被拍下了!!

在我5年中学生涯中, 你为我增添了不少快乐与悲伤的回忆.
谢谢你曾爱过我. 虽然, 我还在质疑你是否真心付出过.
谢谢你给我带来的一切. 我不后悔了.
不再后悔, 你曾出现在我生命里最重要的时刻.
你, 一直会是我生命里最重要的人.
不要忘了我. 即使, 我已忘记我们的过去.
不再爱你. 你也一样. 别爱我. 好好对待她.
第一次爱的人, 谢谢你. 我爱你. 再见.

To : 5SB classmates

2009-10-30T18:30:00.005+08:00

Guys, thanks for being my friends for so many years. Even some of us have been same class together since Form 1. Sometimes, I being very rude to you guys. I'm so sorry about that but you guys will forgive me, right ? Cause I'm a Princess. * evil laugh. Thanks to everyone who has been helping me all the time. You guys must treat me like a Princess wa. I hoped everyone calls me Princess and bows at me today. Wahaha. What a imaginative thinking. BUT it didn't happen !! T_T At least got a person was forced by me, called me princess and said I very beautiful. * Chuckle. Azizah, thanks for your comment. Yuan Ling, thanks for your mini bottle of colour salt. Mei Xue, thanks for your 'medicine'. Guys, I will organise a gathering after SPM. All of you must come. Ok? I have something to give you all. * HOME MADE !!! wahahaha.

OMO~ I cried a waterfall today. T_T Guys, thanks for your hug. HAHA. Have fun at Nic's house ya. ^^ I miss you guys, I love you guys. Do you guys love me and miss me always ? All of you MUST miss me and love me. MUAHAHA. Because I'm the princess of 5SB.

Sorry to Nicholas and Voon Cheng, I can't make it to your house. I've tuition from 8pm till 12am. =.= Sorry, guys. Must take many photos and videos let me see.

Thank you so much !! I love you guys ~~
I'll always love my KIM JAE JOONG.
We are KIM CHI couple.

HaPpY BiRthDay ~

2009-10-28T14:33:00.001+08:00

27-10-2009

Happy Birthday to Jye Jye ~

Lee Min Ho's Etude House's event

2009-10-26T14:09:00.002+08:00

Will Be Updated Soon~!!

男人，你幸福的模样。

2009-10-24T18:14:00.002+08:00

金在中。你幸福的模样。我很开心。你很幸福。
你幸福的模样。让我也开始羡慕起幸福的样子。

金在中。我无法想象一个能站在你身边位子的女人。
我知道那个位子肯定不适合我。也不属于我。

金在中。我无法衷心的祝福你。你要我怎么祝福你呢？
看着你和其他女人结婚，你认为我幸福么？

金在中。我爱你，所以我很幸福。
如果我不幸福了，是不是我不爱你了?

我爱的人。我不爱的人。

2009-10-24T17:48:00.016+08:00

不要对我这么好。我已经习惯一个人。
你这样突然对我好的话，我怕我会不习惯。
不是不想幸福。只是觉得幸福离我太远了。远的让我看不见。
幸福。就像是空气，明明就在我眼前。
可不管我怎么抓，我始终抓不住。
不要对我说永远爱你。我承担不了。
也怕你实现不了。永远对我来说不实际。
永远？死了也还爱我么？下辈子下下辈子也一样爱我么？呵呵。
永远？最好别轻易地说出口。
虽然我不相信，可从你口里说出。我依然会相信。
所以我不想从你口中听到这2个字。
不想受伤，不想离别。所以，宁愿从没开始过。

天使说：“幸福，明明就在你眼前。可为何你总要把它推得远远?不是幸福不找你，是你自己从没想过要让你自己幸福！”

呵呵。不想让我自己幸福？谁说的？我一直都在渴望幸福的爱情。

天使说：“那为何不放开心中的顾虑呢？狠狠的爱一次.至少这样没遗憾。每个人都会被爱情所伤。为何要封闭自己的心？打开它，让它接受迎面而来的幸福。幸福的爱情，始终要冒险。没有努力过，怎样得到属于你真正的幸福呢？ ”

你说得容易。我倒是怕伤害呢。其实，我想说。
我可以很轻易的喜欢上任何人。但，我不会轻易的爱上任何人。
所以，不想去接受任何人对我的好。只好避得远远的.
不想伤害他们，不想他们受伤。
因为，他们对我的好。我不习惯。
如果接受他们的好，却没基于相同的回报。
我会内疚。所以选择一开始就不对他们好。
因为，我知道我会伤害他们。

不要轻易说出我爱你。要认清自己的心之后。
认为自己有能力承担并实现，才说出口。
所以我才说，我不会轻易爱上任何人。
但，我却能轻易的喜欢上任何人。
喜欢和爱不同。前者属于大众化。后者属于专注一人的。

目前为止，除去家人外。我只深爱过两个男人。
前者，早已属于他人。后者，却不属于我。
前者，心已死去。无力再爱。后者，依然无怨无悔的爱着。
两者都是同一年爱上。但两者的爱不同。

我想说。

前者，谢谢你爱过我。谢谢你曾对我的好。
谢谢你带给我的疼痛，让我在爱情中成长。
谢谢你，我爱你。我第一次爱的人。再见。

后者，谢谢你一直给予我的关怀。让我甜在心中。
谢谢你给我带来的欢乐。让我每一天过得快乐无比。
谢谢你所带来的一切。虽然，你不曾属于我。
谢谢你，我爱你。我现在最爱的人。
我不能保证我能爱你到何时。我怕我会食言。
所以我不说，我永远爱你一辈子。
但我可以向你保证的是。此时此刻的我，真的真的很爱你。

我突然觉得。也许不是不习惯。而是害怕将来某一天。
这些已变成生命中的一种习惯的温暖，忽然消失时。
只剩自己一个人独自舔舐孤独的泪水。

PARTY

2009-10-23T20:27:00.002+08:00

Will Be Updated Soon ~!!!

Etude House Workshop

2009-10-20T19:22:00.005+08:00

Based on the tittle, I just back from Korea Plaza. I was attending Etude House Workshop with Da Jing. I was wondering, what if Lee Min Ho suddenly appear to this workshop. What should I do? Scream his name ? Shout at him, I LOVE YOU ? wahaha. Nope. He didn't come. BUT. I have just decided to attend his Etude House Product Launching at Sungei Wang this Sunday. I'm going to get his autograph and talk with him. HAHA. What am I supposed to say ?? I like him?? wahaha. Nope. I still thinking what I'm supposed to tell him. Must let him remember me forever. So I should have to say something more shock than others. Sure in Korean language. I'm going to find someone who willing to help me translate it. I hope and wish I won't faint when I see him. HAHA. Or, speechless forget what I'm supposed to say.

LEE MIN HO, WAITING FOR ME !!
I'M COMING !!

BANANA

2009-10-19T15:34:00.004+08:00

I saw this from a Korean Drama,
[ HEADING TO THE GROUND ]....

BANANA poem

BA = 바보다
NA = 나는바보다
NA = 나는진자바보다

Translate to english is,

Ba = Idiot
Na = I'm an idiot
Na = I'm really an idiot.

Khai Hoe, this is for you. Wahaha...
since you are so desperate for GIRLFRIEND.
This poem is good for you to 'CHASE' girls.
You can tell her, you are an idiot. Wahaha~~
So, she won't mad at you when you make her angry.

2009-10-17T02:27:00.005+08:00

INSOMNIA!!!

Now it's the time for me to sleep.

BUT. I can't sleep at all. [2.40 AM]

Especially, I'm sick now.

See, I still here for blogging.

Even though I didn't take a nap,

but i still can't fall asleep.

I guess, I've many days never slept well.

So, now's the effect comes. INSOMNIA.

Maybe, I should've to take a tablet of sleeping pill.

If not, I couldn't sleep well.

Is there anyone willing to sing a lullaby for me?

So, I could sleep well till the next morning.

Happy Birthday to Appa ~

2009-10-13T20:22:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to YOU~
Happy Birthday to YOU~
Happy Birthday to Appa~
Happy Birthday to YOU!

Saengil Chukha Hamnida ~

他，她和她。[萱的庆生文]

2009-10-13T19:04:00.029+08:00

[背景音乐: FIR - 你很爱她]

他，捧着一束文心兰站在教堂前。
看着教堂里进行结婚仪式的一对恋人。
[文心兰的花语：隐藏的爱]
她，站在远处。看着他，心里一阵阵的心痛在提醒着她。
他，从不曾属于她。

他，每天从早到晚忙着工作。只为照顾他那已患病的年老母亲。
她，每天中午默默地为他年老的母亲准备午餐。

他，从不曾注意过她的存在。
她，从很久以前就一直注意着他。

他，出车祸了。听某人说，伤得挺严重。
她，得知后心里焦急不已。抛下所有的事物，奔向医院去。

他，正躺在手术室。
她，在手术室外徘徊着。

他，车祸伤到脑部，躺在加护病房，虽度过危险期却仍然昏迷中。
她，在他昏迷期间，默默地照顾他与他母亲。不曾停下来歇息。

他，终于在她的照料下。苏醒了。
她，在他睁开眼睛苏醒前一刻，操劳过度病倒了。

他，从护士口中得知，昏迷期间，有个女生默默地照顾他。
她，终于被他注意到了。

他，她。互换角色。

他，照顾她。
她，享受他的照顾。

之后的之后，

他，开始约会她。
她，开心。因为她的付出。开始有了希望。

他，迷恋上她。
她，开始相信付出总会有美好的结局。

他和她，在一起。幸福的生活着。

他，某天和她约会时，遇上另一个她。
她，开始担心。她的出现，是否会让他想起她。

他，承认自己从未曾忘记她。即使和她在一起。
她，知道他心里一直有她。只是不愿接受事实。

他，终于向她坦白。
她，彻底地失望。崩溃。
"你爱过我么？" "我在你心里的位置不比她高吧？"

他，沉默不语。
她，知道他的答案。心碎的答案。

他，犹豫。
她，离去。

爱情，就像股票。有起有落。
你不会预算到，它何时会上涨。何时会掉落。
爱情，也是如此。你不会预算到，他哪天会变心。
或是说，他也许从未曾爱过你。

他，她和她，心痛的结局。

爱情的结局，往往让人猜不透。

作者：陈靖怡
若有雷同，纯属巧合。
如要转载，请向我拿授权书。
[众：自恋！哪有人要看你的文！]
[靖：谁说的？！]

* 看文要回复。做个乖孩子哦。好的坏的意见，我统统接受。

*有点佩服于自己的想象力。
只用了一个小时，边写边想。就完成了。
灵感源自于萱的庆生文。

他, 她和她...是谁呢?

[我不揭晓。自个儿查找吧。但我告诉了萱。哈~]

[我承认，这里面有参杂着我心里的感觉。
也有一些事实的存在。自个儿想想吧。]

[萱，知道了吧？
如果你有点击进来看的话，
这篇送你做庆生文吧。
虽然没有寒冰飞翼写得好。
不过，因为是看了那篇才有灵感写的。
所以就送你了。第一次送人哦。]

3rd Asia Tour Concert 'Mirotic' In Shanghai

2009-10-02T18:21:00.007+08:00

OMO~! I'm so upset now. I can't make it to attend TVXQ! 's 3rd Asia Tour Concert 'Mirotic' In Shanghai today. TVXQ! has reached Shanghai yesterday night and having rehearsal this afternoon. In the fan site, many cassiopeia took a flight from Malaysia to Shanghai few days ago. AND. Now, I'm receiving many messages from them telling me about what's happening now at there. Ngh... I want to cry. I want to see them. I miss them so much. I have long time never see five of them together. I guess, this is the last concert they have because the contract between SM.Entertainment and TVXQ! haven settled yet. I'm regret why I didn't fly to Bangkok to attend their concert held by end of JUNE this year. ARGH !! When could I see them again in Malaysia?

T_T Ngh.... Kim Jae Joong, How could you treat me like that ??? I'm ordering you, faster get the permission hold a concert in Malaysia !!! Don't you know I missing you so much ??

The concert is going to begin now. AND. I just waiting here and receiving messages from them to tell me what's happening there. I wish there's any encore concert will be held next year in Seoul. AND. I swear, I'll take a flight to Seoul and attend every encore concert. OR, I will take a flight to Tokyo or Osaka or Nagoya and attend their 5th Arena live tour or Anation-concert. I will make myself to see them next year. I promise.

3-10-2009

看着后记，也有种冲动想要哭了。我现在才知道，我那时候看演唱会，为何有许多人在演唱会结束后哭泣，不肯离开。我终于知道了。也许那时候的我根本没想这么多，所以才会觉得为何人们要哭泣呢？都看到神起了不是么？应该开心的不是么？呵呵。我错的彻底。真的错的彻底。其实。人们会哭是因为不舍。对，就是不舍。我是在演唱会之后的第二天，才了解。那种情绪，一直在我心里挥散不去。一直持续了2-3个月，才得以平复。连现在的我，虽然很想再次和他们见面，可是我怕。我怕我负荷不了那种情绪。我害怕分离与不舍。我害怕，和你们分开。我害怕那种感觉。因为我不知道，我们何时还能再见面。在等待你们的过程中，我渐渐习惯了。习惯上等待你们的感觉。原来，等待的感觉比分开与不舍的感觉好多了。现在的我，开始喜欢等待。但是，要是哪天，你们真的决定来开唱了，我会去现场么？我害怕。我害怕分离同时也害怕不能与你们相见。明明那么相近，为何就不能让自己到现场去？可是，我胆小。我害怕。我始终无法负荷那种情绪。

I'm exhausted... I need some air...

2009-09-29T18:55:00.012+08:00

'Lub Dup...Lub Dup...Lub Dup...' my heart pound faster when I heard the news. I can't stand on it. I know everyone will know it. I know everyone will come to ask me about it. AND. I know, everyone will be discussing about it. So, everyone after know it, please do not ask me anything about it. I'm not going to explain anything. I'm exhausted. PLEASE ! DO NOT ASK ME ANYTHING ABOUT IT ! If you did it, I will scold you and chase you to get out of my sight or cry in front of you. Please leave me alone. I hate rumuors. I don't want to hear anyone discussing about it in front of me. Do not ask me anything about it after read through this post. ISH !! May I write it rudely. Do not be so 38 about it. It doesn't your business !!

怨念的我。抱怨着你。

2009-09-26T19:23:00.014+08:00

我知道。我写这篇东西就代表此时此刻的我很怨念。笑话！我哪可能在得知那事情之后不埋怨抱怨你的事情呢？天哪，你为何占据在我心中重要的位置呀？？我不管！我不管！我要你马上离开。哼！你一定是知道我被你吃得死死的，所以就赖在我这不走了，对吧？那个既然知道，为何就没注意到我的心呢？？你就这样狠心地让我的心在淌血么？可恶的你！亏我还这么死心塌地爱着你！

你，真的不喜欢男人么？
你，真的只有喜欢手脚漂亮的女生么？
你，真的这么寂寞么？
你，真的需要为了解决某种事而干那档事么？
你，怎么就没想过我的心情呢？

你的配偶必备条件。哈~！要是我说10个里我中了8个。那你是不是就会投向于我呢？即使是和你在一起，也许我会感觉到我是全世界最幸福的女生，可其实暗地里我一点儿也不幸福的，不是么？所以说，我选择默默地喜欢你好呢？还是，成为你的唯一呀？其实我还想要抱怨的。但我怎么可以抱怨呢？这一切都是我自找的。都是我心甘情愿的，不是么？我怎么能抱怨你呢？

如果爱你是幸福的。那么，我爱你。我很幸福。
可是。要是哪天，我不幸福了。是不是代表我不爱你了？

即使你从不曾属于我。
但，看着围绕在你身边的女人。
我会吃醋，我会心疼。占有欲比谁都强。
我知道，我爱你。比谁都爱你。
看不到你，我挂念你。想念你。
有天，你募然回首。会看见我。
一直站在原地里等着你。

唉，算了吧。我都认了一切。
我都把我的命栽在你手上了呢。
我不轻言放弃，否则对不起自己。
必须曾经拥有，才能说要放弃。
那个，你就给我等着瞧吧。
当我开始行动时，你就等着接招吧！

Ipod Nano

2009-09-24T13:19:00.004+08:00

I want to have a RED colour 5th generation Ipod Nano since I saw Jae Joong owns one. I also want to buy that T-shirt which is LIKE A HERO cassiopeia forum's goodies. Who's going to order the Ipod Nano 5th generation (PRODUCT) RED™ special edition for me ??? I want to own it so much.

My Crown

2009-09-23T22:50:00.006+08:00

Woohoo, do you all see my CROWN ?? HAHA. My dad bought it for me. I never thought that my dad will buy this for me. When I was trying on this crown, my mum keep on telling my dad that I always tell everyone I'm a princess. HAHA. That's truth. I'm the Princess of ' J.J Palace '. HEHE. Thanks, my dad. WOOHOO~ Today is my mum's birthday. Well, because of something happened currently, my parents are busy-ing on solving the problems. So, we decided to celebrate it tomorrow or the other day. Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!

I'm going to...

2009-09-22T19:51:00.010+08:00

I'm going to ...
I'm going to ...
I'm going to ...
I'm going to ...

What am I going to do after SPM examination ?? HAHA. I've been thinking this question for many times. Well, you will say why don't you use the time to study and to think about it after SPM examination. Yaya, but I can't stop myself thinking of it, because I've a lot of things to do and to accomplish. Woohoo, do you know what am i going to do ?? Shhhhh.... It's a secret. Just drop your comment here, guess what I'm going to do. No prizes for you. HEHE. Guess for fun. ^^ If you know me very well, you sure got the answer. Right ?

My new lover

2009-09-21T16:42:00.006+08:00

Yuma Nakayama, a 15-years-old Japanese boy. Currently, he's my new lover. I fell in with him when i first watched his drama [ Vampire Boy ]. Firstly, I don't even know who's the character inside the drama. Well, I watched this drama because of VAMPIRE. HAHA. I just reliased this boy is look alike with my Jae Joong. Especially, his eyes. I love his eyes. I stare into his eyes and see a man that I've known him very well. Ya, that's my Jae Joong. If Jae Joong found out I fell in love with this boy who is younger than me, maybe he will cut me into pieces. HAHA. But he will never know it, right ?? Woohoo, don't you guys think that this boy is look alike with my Jae Joong ? I mean his eyes. HAHA. Muackss... I like you, Yuma Nakayama.... ^^

김재중 ❤ 진정이

2009-09-20T11:34:00.004+08:00

오빠,사랑해.
너한테 미치겠어.
난 니거야.하지만,넌 안내거야.
너 잘 생겼어.너 섹시하다.
우리 결혼하자?
너의 부인이 되고 싶어.
당산은 나의 남편이 되고 싶어요?
너 나의남자. 나 너의여자.
❤ 우리사랑이영원히.행복하요. ❤

ㄱㄱㄱ.ㅎㅎㅎ.

the conversation between us is WORLD WAR III ?

2009-09-16T20:29:00.008+08:00

Whoa... Since when I become so popular ?Just because of those conversations between us = World War III ? I have no idea which fellow printed the conversation and showed to our headmistress... Nothing happens anyway. We are just discussing the truth. Maybe tomorrow my blog becomes popular because I'm comment-ing on this sensitive issue. HAHA. And everyone in my school knows my blog link. Woohoo.. a fellow named 'ANT ' was comment on it. I have no idea who he is. I'm sure he's the one who misunderstanding the whole thing. He just listened the negative site's people talking crap and started to SPAM us. As what I say, DARE TO ADMIT WHAT YOU ALL HAVE DONE !! DO NOT BLAME OTHERS AND JUDGE THEM IF YOU KNEW NOTHING !! Well, almost all the form 5 students knew I spam at someone's status.... Its nothing to me. I am just telling the truth. Besides that, those who printed and showed to our headmistress, how dare she/he ? HAHA. Did they know who start the conversation first ?? I think they misunderstanding. We did nothing wrong. AND they were so FREE to do those things. By the way, why don't they dare to admit it ? HAHA. Thanks to those like my status. ^^ Guys, I'm just telling the truth. Don't be so sensitive. AND I'm not offending anyone....

Vanness Wu's QUOTES

2009-09-12T18:57:00.011+08:00

" Give me wings, let me dream.
When I fly, I'll be complete. " --- By Vanness Wu.

God, please give me a pair of wings. I want dream. Dream of something I LOVE to and I WANT to do so. I would like to fly to your side. PROTECT you. LOVE you. AND, I'll be complete. That's my mission in my entire life. BUT, Would you belong to me ?

" If you don't read the newspaper,
you will be uninformed.
BUT,
If you do read the newspaper,
you will be misinformed. " --- By Vanness Wu.

You read the newspaper, you will gain general knowledge or know something else. BUT, do you know there will have some wrong information given by newspaper ? You do not know, you will fully believe the information they given. AND, start to judge someone that you don't really know about them.

" I have no right to judge someone. " --- By Vanness Wu.

Do not judge people, who you don't really know about them. You have no right to judge someone. AND yet, that's not fair to those who being judge by you.

* I had just read a book yesterday, forgot what name it is. Is all about Vanness Wu. I'm using his quotes on his book and writing some comment on it.

男人, 谢谢你

2009-09-08T19:11:00.006+08:00

男人啊男人,
为何每次遇到任何事情,
我能想到的唯一解决方法,
就是逃避一切投向于你呢?

男人啊男人,
我是不是很懦弱无能啊?
我是不是很情绪化啊?
嗯,一切都是我自作自受.

男人啊男人,
可以容许我把你抢走到我身边吗?
可以让我把你困在我的世界里吗?
可以就这样让我自私地拥有你吗?

男人啊男人,
是不是没有了你我就不完整了?
是不是没有了你就没有了我?
是不是只有你的存在才有我的存在?

男人啊男人,
我的避风港,我向往的依靠,
让我依赖让我依偎的你,
就一直保持这样的方式吧.

男人啊男人,
等你准备成家立业,
等我心思已经成熟,
我们就可以分开彼此了.

金在中. 没有了你. 就没有了我.
你是我的精神支柱.
也是我的一切所有.
谢谢你还在我身边.

NIGHTMARE !!!

2009-08-31T10:58:00.005+08:00

MY NIGHTMARE START TOMORROW. T_T Saying GAMBATEH to myself and everyone who is sitting SPM TRIAL this 3 weeks. Anyone well-prepared ?? OMO~!! I haven finished do my revision. I cannot blame anyone because I keep playing, online-ing, and watching TV this whole holiday. So what could I do now ?? When the results came out, my parents sure keep nagging me or skin me like an animal for fur. T_T They will not allow me to online anymore until SPM end. =.= By the way, I should've to rush everything. REALLY. 79 days left to SPM. TVXQ have their 2 months holiday. AND. NOW. I should keep studying, do revision-ing and tuition-ing till SPM start. BUT. The problem is...... Did I have determined ?? T_T

24.8.09 Ayumi was attending TVXQ' s A-nation Concert

2009-08-30T11:35:00.006+08:00

Ayumi Hamasaki, one of the most popular JPOP artists in Japan might be becoming a fan girl of TVXQ / DBSK / Tohoshinki. She wrote on her blog that despite being under the same label, Avex, she just recently discovered their beautiful voices and became a fan. Specifically TVXQ's A-Nation performance at Ehime. She also posted photos of herself waving a green towel and wear a Tohoshinki shirt in support of them.

This is pretty cool, having one of the biggest female artists in Japan come out and support you. Even though the boys have legal trouble back home in Korea, they're still going strong in Japan.

“…Chon-san (nickname Ayumi Hamasaki made for herself) went to go watch Tohoshinki’s performance in very very high spirits today. But… Due to a mistake in planning, when I went, they were already on their last song.

So there I am, wearing my Tohoshinki t-shirt, wearing a Tohoshinki towel on my neck, holding a Tohoshinki fan, I’m all totally ready… But tomorrow, I shall have my revenge!”

“…To those asking ‘Why were you holding a Tohoshinki towel?’… I’M A FAN!♪ They have beautiful singing voices, I fell in love with them in Ehime~.”

source from allkpop.com

HIPPO !!

2009-08-29T16:06:00.007+08:00

Today, I had my lunch with my mum & brother after tuition at PTM. We having our lunch at a restaurant around Pandan Indah. While waiting my brother finish his CHAO KUEY TEOH, I saw a car parking in front the restaurant. Under the car got something hanging at there. I went near the car and saw a toy is hanging there. HAHA. Is a blue hippo. Here are the photos I captured.

윤재 couple

2009-08-25T19:40:00.005+08:00

Woohoo~ My favourite Gay couple -- 윤재 couple
윤재 couple = Yun Ho + Jae Joong.
The famous GAY couple in Korea.

They look so sweet, aren't they ?
I wish Jae Joong and his boyfriend [ Jung Yun Ho] never be apart.

** Actually, they're not GAY. Just too close to each other.
Everyone in CASSIOPEIA loves and supports this gay couple.

6H's gathering

2009-08-24T12:31:00.000+08:00

Will be update soon~

身上残留你の香味

2009-08-24T10:57:00.013+08:00

清晨的第一缕阳光，照亮我の眼睛.
你の香味, 一直围绕在我身边飘流着.
是从哪一刻起, 我迷恋上这股香味.

不舍得洗去这股香味.
想让它一直遗留在我身上.
这样能让我感觉你还在我身边.

果然, 我还是得洗去这股香味.
洗澡之后, 香味跟着随风飘去.
我, 开始想念那股香味.

拿起手上の衣服, 嗅一嗅.
嗯, 你の香味也遗留在我衣服上.
不知觉地多嗅了一下.

不舍得洗去衣服上你残留下の香味.
想一直保留着这股香味.
这样能让我回忆起我们在一起の时刻.

也许, 我会克制不了.
冲去百货公司香水售卖处の柜台.
拿着手上的衣服, 询问你所用の香水品牌.

其实我可不必问. 因为...
我知道你用の正是****品牌新推出的香水.
DKNY LIMITED EDITION BE DELICIOUS

迷恋上, 我身上你所残留の香味.

I Miss You

2009-08-22T20:40:00.004+08:00

The first day of school holiday, I start missing you.
What happened to me ? Am I fall in love with you ?
Nope. I don't think so. I won't let this thing happen to me.
I couldn't betray Kim Jae Joong. He's my only love.

By the way,
what's the reason make me missing you so much ?
Do you know why ? I don't know.
I can't stop myself thinking of you.

I dreamt about you yesterday night.
We went for dating. Don't know where was it.
It was a sweet and nice dream. HAHA.
I was wondering is that reality or ideality ?

Maybe this is just a illusion. Easy-come-easy-go.
So, please don't fall in love with me.
Because the place in my heart never belongs to anyone.
Only for Kim Jae Joong.

Beautiful Jae Joong.

2009-08-19T14:51:00.009+08:00

Jae Joong acted as a lady in their famous drama --- 'DANGEROUS LOVE' in 2006. These are the pictures from ALL ABOUT TVXQ 3. Does he look beautiful, doesn't he ?

Please do not envy his good-looking.

oodgay yebay.

2009-08-17T18:50:00.021+08:00

I don't know. What's going on?
Am I the one who deceived by you all ?
I'm not feeling well at all.
I hate this type of feeling given by you.

Maybe,
I should give up all these relationship between us.
I can't stand for it anymore.
Like thousands of swords piercing towards my heart.

Maybe,
I could turn to others. And fall for them.
This is the better way for me.
Because I've been waiting you for so long.

I should forget what happened between us.
I should leave you alone. And walk away.
I'm not going to beg you for staying by my side.
I'm not going to do that. I've self-esteem.

Iway ikelay ouyay.
Utbay iway amway oinggay otay eavelay ouyay ownay.
Iway illway urntay otay imhay.
Utbay ehay isway otnay ouryay eplacementray.

Iway eallyray oday ovelay imhay.

SORRY. PLEASE FORGIVE ME.

2009-08-11T15:08:00.010+08:00

Yea, I know I'm rude. Girls should not be like that, right ? Everyday keep saying FUCK and showing the middle finger. Guys in the class always complaint about me. Actually, I don't bother. BUT. NOW. I feel sorry to you all. Guys, I'm so sorry. Sincerely. YOU, I know you want me to be good. So, I won't say any bad words even show the middle finger to you all start from now. IF. I say any bad words or show middle finger coincidentally. Please Forgive Me. Because I used to do that. Suddenly want me to change the bad habbit, it doesn't feel 'COMFORTABLE'. This is the first and also the last. Please appreaciate it. AND. I'm willing to say sorry to you all.

GUYS, I'M SO SORRY TO YOU ALL.
Sorry for what I've been done to you all.
I know. You all will forgive me, right ?

Jae Joong's ° TATOO °

2009-08-07T16:44:00.006+08:00

☆ The pleasures of the mighty are the tears of the poor

☆ A song will outlive sermons in the memory

☆ Hope to the end

☆ TVXQ SOUL

☆ Always keep the faith

Always Keep The Faith

2009-08-03T19:31:00.009+08:00

东方神起三名成员，“没有受到好的待遇” 官方立场

负责细亚俊秀，英雄在中，秘奇有天法定代理的律师 3日发表了官方立场。三名成员“出道后因公司提出的日程，现在身心特别虚弱，化妆品事业跟这次诉讼没有一点关系”

下面是报道材料全文。

1．出道5年后东方神起因为公司太多的日程现在身心特别虚弱。
金俊秀，金在中，朴有天是东方神起的成员，自从2004年初出道后到现在按照SM的命令去韩国，日本，中国去赶日程，1年有一个星期的休假以外一天只能睡3-4个小时的睡眠。因为这些太多的日程他们的身心到极限，但SM因为让他们到海外发展，让他们消化越来越多的日程。SM这样不是为了让他们成就音乐梦想，而是把他们当做增加公司收入的刀具，3名成员认识了这一点后想得到相应的，好的待遇，所以向法院提出了不公平条约的修正内容。

2.13年的签约实际上是终身签约。
虽然在签约时间上看是13年，那里并不包括兵役2年的时间。15年以上的话现在还剩下10年，意思是那是到退演义界的时间，如果违约的话得付总投资额的3倍，收益2倍的巨大违约金，因为这些巨大的金额，以前根本不能提出解除签约，所以只能留在SM到至今为止！

3.成员们没有在SM收到和努力成正比的待遇！
成员在签约时间期间，根本没有受到相应的待遇。
资金分配，专集收入的分配条款来看，如果专辑卖到50万张以上，就在下个专集发行前给个人一千万韩币，没有卖到50万张，那么一分钱也不能收到！这项条款在2009.2.6修改，改正后成员们个人收入是专集销售额的0.4%~1.%。

4.成员们多次向SM提出修改要求，但SM根本没有听成员们的话
在这种情况下3名成员认识了SM签约的不公平条约的不当性，多次向公司提出了修改要求，但SM没有听他们的话，一直往化妆品事业推责任，向媒体，新闻多次说出和这次事件没有一点关系的化妆品投资。但3名成员因为期盼这件事情圆满结束，最终决定双方人员见面之后通过对话解决这件事，但SM根本没有答应，在这个过程中成员们意识到SM的态度根本不是要通过对话来解决，在这个方法上抱希望根本不可能，所以3 名成员希望通过法院解决这件事情，最终提出了修正案。

5.化妆品事业投资是跟演义活动没有一点关系的投资，和这次不公平条约申请案也没有一点关系
SM一直说的化妆品事业是给进出中国的化妆品销售公司，3个人以股东投资，根本和这次事件没有一点关系。成员们提出的修正案是签约内容的不公平性。

6.成员们根本不希望东方神起解散，只是想在不公平签约中脱离出来而已。
很多FANS们可能都因为这件事情担心东方神起解散。
但这次修改条约内容的申请根本不是以东方神起解散为前提。虽然因为解决问题的方案成员们意见不同其中的3名成员参与诉讼，但成员们之间根本没有问题，他们的心是一样的，想跟FANS们一直走下去是他们的心愿。他们坚信，希望通过这件事情，不公平条约能修正之后能建立一个好的环境，大家成为一体，在FANS们前面唱歌。

Always Keep The Faith !

加油啊~ 你们不会让我失望的. 你们说过的承诺不会食言的.

亲爱的，我需要你。

2009-08-02T09:46:00.005+08:00

李秀满先生。我不需要求你。也不需要拜托你。
我只希望您让东方神起好好的。
要是让我知道，你刻薄他们。我会让你好看。

神起，我敬爱的神起。
我求你们。告诉我事情的真相。
到底发生了什么事情？

是不是所有人都知道事情的真相？
是不是只有我一个人被蒙在鼓里？

我还可以相信吗？你们承诺过的一切。
你们说不管是5年还是50年，神起都不会解散。
昌珉说。找一天。在游乐园开一个巨型粉丝见面会。
让全世界的仙后参与这个盛事。
这一切都是真的吗？

亲爱的，我已经不知道该怎么了。嗯？

Come back to me

2009-08-01T20:07:00.009+08:00

Am I going to lose you now ?

PLEASE !! Do not leave me alone.

I need you so much.

I'm begging you. Come back to me.

I can't stand for it.

I'm having a bad feeling about it.

It won't be truth. Right ?

Who's going to tell me the truth ?

Please tell me why.

I want to know it.

No matter how bad it is.

Please come back to me.

No matter what you say. I still loving you.

Can you stand by me forever ?

Can you stay by my side forever ?

I'm afraid of losing you. Don't you realise it ?

PLEASE !! Come back to me.

I'm not feeling well at all.

I won't be smile again if I losing you.

I'm not strong enough to live without you.

Is not easy to forget you.

You are existed in my life.

So, please come back to me.

I need you so much. I love you.

5个人的风景

2009-08-01T11:24:00.017+08:00

我一直以为我已经可以平静地去看待这一切.

可是, 为什么直到今天早上我得知这一切时,

我的心再也平静不了. 果然, 我还是口是心非.

我一直深信你们会一直永远的在一起.

如你们对我们承诺一样.一直深信不疑.

可是为何现在的我开始怀疑了这一切?

不知道其中的原因是如何运作的.

只想亲眼亲耳看见听见,这件事是否属实.

其实韩饭早就知道这件事了, 对吧?

只有我们一直被蒙在鼓里.

属于5个人的舞台.永远忘不了.

请一直继续属于你们5个人的舞台.

即使要分开, 也再次让我看见永远属于你们5个人的舞台.

5只当中, 最关注的一直都是金在中.

果然, 我还是舍不得. 属于东方神起5个人的背影.

或许我会成为金在中的唯饭,

但我还是会忘不了5个人的舞台.

5个人一起欢乐.

5个人一起抽风.

5个人一起跳舞.

5个人一起唱歌.

金俊秀.朴有天.金在中.沈昌珉.郑允浩.

即使我常对着中间盯着不放.

我还是记得你们5个人的位置.

忘れないで.

✖ ジェジュン、私はあなたをずっと愛してます ✖

☠ 即使要我出卖灵魂给恶魔, 我也在所不惜. ☠

为的就是属于5个人的情景.

你的微笑。

2009-07-30T20:13:00.006+08:00

我们认识彼此有4年之久了。

我们之间的谈话少之又少。

那天偶然的机会，我们聊天了。

你给我的印象是极为冷酷的。

曾经偷偷地注意过你的一切。

你不常笑，常把冷酷挂在脸上。

那天，谈话中。我不知觉的笑了。

在我面前的你。也不禁腼腆的笑了。

是巧合吗？还是因为我的笑容而笑了？

你的眼睛直盯着我。

笑容也是属于我的，对吧？

你是那么的温柔。优雅。

你的笑容。属于我的笑容。

那天的画面定格在我脑海里。

不想忘记。想一直记住。

如果可以，让我再看一次属于我的微笑。

A french attended our class at MC

2009-07-29T20:44:00.014+08:00

Guess what happened in our english class? Based on the tittle.

Zhen Jin brought her friend [ Exchange student from France ] --- Ona attended our english class at MC. Wow, what a pretty girl ! She very tall, slim, and so on. She almost perfect in every part of her body. HaHa. We were having english class together. Mr.Sean talked to her in french. Sir wanted us to keep asking her question. * She can speak very well in english . The last question asked by Ee Leng. What's the impression of malaysian boy ? [I think the question is like that. ] Then sir told Ona say it in French and then translate again in english. Well, she said a lot and we don't understand. Haha. After that, sir told her no need to translate and get back to sit. WTF. Everyone in the class don't know what she commented on Malaysian guys except sir and she. NOT FAIR.

Today, we had learnt tenses. Sir wanted us using the tenses what he taught. We were having a game using tenses.Usually I'm group with cartene, Pius and Adrian. But sir separated us. So I was group with Kha Hau, Wei Bour and Calvin. Four of us started discussing the Alibis. The other group planned funny thing. Haha! They planned about after they finished class. They were fishing with Kino. Haha. And they found a big pearl in shark's kidney when they barbequed the shark's kidney. Haha. The game was process in a good environment. Haha. Everyone in the class were enjoyed in it. Including me.

After finished the class, Wy-Quin treated our gang included Ona a box of Tiramisu. Thanks Wy Quin ! I haven tasted yet. We went upstairs taking photos with Ona. ........ and Wy Quin looks like fall in love at the first sight he saw Ona. Haha.

For more Ona's photos and information, Do visit Cartene and Zhen Jin's Blog.

Princess Ching Yee

2009-07-28T16:57:00.009+08:00

Yoyoyo~ Everyone... Please call me Princess Ching Yee.
wahaha ^^ Do you all want to know the reason?
That is,

Today, Teong Geng and me were chating with Mr. Freddy before the class start. We bought him a cup of cendol. While chating, Freddy knew I'm the one who was KACAU him few days ago in MSN. I told him, if I tell you my name you also don't know who I am. So, he said. What's your nickname? Guess what I said. I told him you can call me Leng lui. haha ^^ He laughed at me and said which part of my body look like leng lui. Then, it's ok. I can change another nickname. Teong Geng told him, call me princess. wahaha ^^ After that, we keep chating~~

I heard from Ah Hee. She said this week extra class will be postpone to next thursday. [ But teacher said this week? ] So after finish class, I asked teacher to postpone. Teacher said he has no time because other Kasturi OUTLET having extra classes start from next month. I keep asking. haha ^^ Then, teacher has no choice. He said. Yes, princess. wahaha~ Freddy called me princess and he is the prince. [ His nickname ]

SO, I'M THE PRINCESS NOW !! lalala~

The Fate between You & Me

2009-07-25T17:53:00.035+08:00

You ! Yeah, I'm talking to you now.

Please. Please forget me.

This is the first and also the last, I ordering you.

Don't ask me why. I can't tell you. I don't know.

Please !! You have no choice. You must.

I swear, I'll forget you too.

So, we are fair to each other now.

Please. Please forget me like I never exist in your life.

AND. I'll forget you like you never exist in my life.

I'll love you in the next life.

We'll meet each other and fall in love again.
In the next life, if I can't remember you.

Please recall me everything we've been done together.

If you can't remember me,

I'll recall you everything we've been done together.

You, my love. My only love.

I love you more than everything.

Please kiss me. If you LOVE me.

Please do not leave me alone.

Please do not leave me away.

I can't stand for it, if you're not by my side.

Our wedding. Our Love.

Must be held in Paris, France.

By Ching Yee a.k.a 千羽恋

Birthday celebration

2009-07-24T19:08:00.008+08:00

They wish to get good results in SPM.

They blew the New York Cheese cake.

The New York Cheese cake from Secret Recipe.

They cut the cake.

Jun Wai, Kim Chew, Zhee Hao, Yuen Xing

** I watched the Harry Potter and the half- blood prince today. Not really nice~! I prefer Twilight!! Yoohoo, I'm waiting for the NEW MOON premier on end of November.

Home Sweet Home

2009-07-22T21:00:00.007+08:00

Jae Joong had a happy day with his family when he was given a free time by his company.He went to his sister's pork restaurant? [ I think is PORK !! haha~] He took photos with his sisters, niece and sister's husband. His niece are so cute with the curly hair same with their mother.haha~

Source from Jae Joong's sister CY World

First State Gathering

2009-07-21T19:07:00.005+08:00

Source from www.official-my-tvxq.com

Korean Language Class

2009-07-20T18:25:00.007+08:00

Students of Korean Language Class with Mr.Park

Da Jing, Ching Yee, Eve & Choi Ling

Mr. Park & Ching Yee

Mr.Park & Da JIng

Mr. Park & Choi Ling

Ching Yee & Eve

Dajing & Eve

Choi Ling & Eve

Chris & Choiling

Chris & Dajing

Chris & Ching Yee

Today is the last lesson for our korean language class. We will be continue learning korean language after SPM !! At here, I need to say something to Eve. Bonvoyage ! Have a nice studies in Korea !! I'll miss you a lot !!

33rd BON ODORI

2009-07-18T22:03:00.003+08:00

Lazy to write on this post. =.=

MMJ at Jogoya,Starhill

2009-07-17T23:08:00.023+08:00

暧昧。距离。一吻定情。

2009-07-16T19:49:00.015+08:00

距离。忽远忽近。
暧昧。忽热忽冷。
一吻定情。差距。

微笑。只有你懂得。

伤心。有你逗我笑。

开心。有你陪我笑。

爱是不需要言语的。

爱是要靠行动证明。

你这是爱的表现吗？

这是爱吗？我不知道。

这是喜欢吗？也许是。

别问我是谁。我不知。

谢谢你。

CHEER YOU UP

2009-07-15T20:49:00.013+08:00

This T-shirt [ CHEER YOU UP ] product of GIORDANO. My Jae Joong wore it when he was flying from Japan to Korea in the Incheon airport. I saw Malaysia's Giordano outlets are selling this Tee ~ I heard that the Tee is almost sold out in every outlet. I'm scared, I don't even want to lose a chance to have a same Tee with Jae Joong. [ Although I've been bought 2 same Tee that Jae Joong wore it before ! haha~ ] So, I was urging my mum to buy the Tee for me from last Saturday night till Sunday morning. Then my mum TAK BOLEH TAHAN already. haha ~! Finally and hopefully, I bought it !! Thanks GOD !! Muacks... I'm going to wear it on this Friday with my MNG tapered skinny jeans in red !!

Memory of 14.7.2006

2009-07-14T22:36:00.004+08:00

3 years ago. TVXQ had been held their 1st Asia Tour 'Rising Sun ' Concert in Malaysia. Malaysia was the first station that the tour started. I missed the concert and I feel regret. NOW. ALWAYS. The reason I can't make it to there because I'm so small. I was 14 years old. I still remember the prices of the ticket was much cheaper than the 2nd ASIA Tour 'O' CONCERT. I've been loving and support them for 3 years. Not a long time nor short time. They are success !! Their last station of 4th ARENA TOUR [THE SECRET CODE] was held at TOKYO DOME on 4th & 5th of July. And now they're having their 3rd Asia Tour 'Mirotic' Concert.

Dong Bang Shin Ki oppa, hwaiting ! Saranghaeyo...

AT A GLANCE !

2009-07-13T19:29:00.024+08:00

To all the FORM 5 Prefect,

MMJ will be held at JOGOYA, STARHILL on this Friday. We will having our dinner at 5.00pm-9.30pm. We gather at main entrance of Pavilion or Starhill at around 4 o'clock and go there together. NEED NOT WORRY ABOUT THE FINANCIAL PROBLEM ! Our treasurer will pay for it. See you all there ~ Have a nice day ! Happy Retirement !

ATTENTION!!

The dinner will be start at 5.00pm till 9.30pm. Meal period is restricted to 2 hours during weekend and public holiday. Please do not keep asking why do we need to stay there for so long and soso. This is the period for dinner !! The time is fixed. So, if you want to go back earlier then you can straight away finished your dinner and go home. NO ONE will force you stay !! AND !! Old members, please do not keep asking why don't we give you money or what. You all are not allowed to asking of this financial problem. All the money will be manage by our treasurer. The rest of the money will be given for us [committee] to buy presents. If don't know the truth, please don't simply say anything.

By Secretary of Prefect board,
Tan Ching Yee.

3rd Asia Tour Mirotic Concert In Bangkok

2009-06-27T16:19:00.009+08:00

呜呜呜呜~ T_T

不管啦~！人家我也要现在飞过去泰国曼谷找你啊！！

看你在昨天的记者会蛮开心的嘛~~ 可我想亲眼见你啊~！
怎么不来大马开唱呢？你就不知道我多么爱你么？
不管啦不管啦！！我要你现在就出现在我眼前啦！
你知道我现在心痒痒的么？我看不到你我心不舒服啊~~！！
大马和泰国这么近，怎么就不分一天到大马举行呢？

金在中！你不能这么偏心啊！！

男人，你是如此的美丽。

2009-06-26T19:04:00.011+08:00

男人，你是如此的美丽。

男人，你是如此的帅气。

男人，你是如此的成功。

男人，你是如此的完美。

哈~！你的美貌果然不是虚有的。

天哪，连我也嫉妒你的美貌了呀~

一个男人，怎么会有如此美丽的脸孔呢？

我不管啦！我也要！我要！我要你！呵呵。

原谅我。虽然你不喜欢别人说你漂亮。

可当我见到你的时候，我还是会对你说：‘金在中，你很美啊！’

哈哈，我想当下的你一定会愣住然后对我微笑。我是这么想的。

那个，我想说你干脆去做女的吧！去和郑允浩在一起！哈哈~

再说你的厨艺这么棒，吃过你煮的食物的人都对你的厨艺赞不绝口啊~

要是我能吃到，那一定是我上辈子修来的福分！

不过我倒是想和你挑战一件事情。找一天黄道吉日，我们来决一胜负。

比什么呢？我们就来个吃辣比赛！哈哈。虽然我知道赢的人不会是我。

不过我乐于比赛的过程。想看看你当下的表情。看你是如此的热爱吃辣。

*话说今天我家新买的车到了，去看新车咯。拜~！

Rest in Peace. Michael Jackson.

2009-06-26T16:47:00.007+08:00

Michael Jackson has died at the age of 50. He reportedly died after suffering from a cardiac arrest and falling into a coma on the way to hospital. The news was broken on a celebrity Web site, and spread via social networks such as Twitter and Facebook before traditional media would even touch the story.

It’s a shocking and premature end to the life of one of the entertainment world’s most famous and iconic characters, but it’s now been confirmed that Michael Jackson is dead. He suffered a heart attack at around 12pm midday at his Holmby Hills home in Los Angeles, and was taken to UCLA hospital after falling into a coma.

Doctors are now saying that paramedics failed to resuscitate the singer after finding him not breathing when they arrived at his home. Michael Jackson was pronounced dead on arrival at the hospital.

[ SOURCE FROM BLORGE ]

I was so shock when I heard this news from my classmates. They were discussing about Michael Jackson's death. Although I'm not his fans or whatever, but I'm feel sad about it. Rest In Peace Michael Jackson.

禁忌之恋

2009-06-23T18:32:00.014+08:00

阳光强烈的洒在我身上

微风轻轻的飘过我脸庞

雨水粒粒的滴在我肩上

月光温柔的照耀我心房

这一切的大自然景象

本该规律的自然运作

可却有人想逆反运作

但却不失原由的美好

两个人的恋爱里

一个男和一个女

异性之间的奇妙

费尽心机去探索

同性之恋

两个男人

两个女人

有谁看好？

同性之恋又称为禁忌之恋，一个被世俗排斥的恋情。

上帝创造男人女人，只为了让世间完美的延续后代。

可上帝却没让禁忌之恋彻底消除在这世间，不是吗？

在所有人都认为同性之恋是个不被允许的恋情时，

世人可有想过，两个相爱的人就会因为这种种而被拆散。

相爱的人因为世俗的眼光而不能在一起，那种感受世人可想过？

禁忌之恋，也是一个爱情。只是它并不是自然的运作。

世人费尽所能的阻止，让相爱的人分开。世人的心情可好过？

爱本是莫名其妙的。禁忌之恋，也不过如此。

世人都认为爱上同性就是因为本身就是喜欢同性么？

世人可有想过，他们所爱的人凑巧是同性。

如果自己有天也爱上一个同性，那种感受你就会体会到了。

我，陈靖怡。虽说赞同禁忌之恋的存在。可我能改变世人的看法么？

看着一对对的同性CP，因为世人的眼光而经历着痛苦的爱情。

我能不难过么？ 能遇上深爱自己的人，不容易。

他们那伟大坚定的爱情，我想要也没有！

可为何却有人要竭尽所能的拆散？

也许看着这篇我写的文章的你们会鄙视我的想法。

也许你们过着幸福双双对对的日子，

但是你们可有想过同性之恋也渴望着。

也许，也许，也许。。。

郑允浩。金在中。虽不是同性之恋。

但就看这一张图，就能感受到这拥抱充满爱。

恋上你 -- 金在中

2009-06-21T21:25:00.009+08:00

不知道是从何时开始，对于男女情情爱爱的事情就已经看得开了。
可能在感情受创后，就对这些事情已经不在乎了。
故我认为，生活还是要有爱情的滋润。呵呵。

心里现在所牵挂的，金在中。只有他了。
爱他，为何我会爱上他？呵呵。
爱就是莫名其妙。爱就是不可理喻。
爱就是看一眼爱上了就爱上了。

金在中，陈靖怡。
一个在韩国/日本。一个在马来西亚。
隔着那么遥远距离的两人，会能察出什么火花呢？

心里，曾经独自幻想。
要是哪天站在在中的身边是我的话，我会有什么感受？
幸福的笑着，还是会被周围的压力给沉的透不过气来？

会和你天长地久的人，一定不是你这一生中最爱的人。
呵呵，我看到的时候就感慨了。
作者也一定是无法紧守自己深爱的人。

金在中，从何时起你已在我心中占了这么重要的位置？
是那一刻起吧。从我第一眼见到你时，我就没免疫力了。
你就是我心中那把钥匙。打开了我心中所有的防备，住了进去。

解铃人还须系铃人。你会原封不动地把我的心给封闭吗？
呵呵。即使封闭了，我脑海中全都是你。
怎么能说忘了就忘了呢？这世上又没忘情水！

尚若，有一天你有了心爱的人。我该情归何处？
哈哈。所以我已经做好心理准备了。
爱你爱到你不再爱我时。虽然你从没爱过我。呵呵。
到时，我该放开你的一切。希望我可以做到。

若知道爱你不能得到你，就不爱了。
可我已爱上，能谈上后悔么？

* 只是有时候我还是会想，我爱你还是习惯了你的存在？

* 那个原谅我的私心，我宁可你和允浩在一起。你们多般配。
总觉得没有任何一个女生能配得上你。哈哈。

乐, 回家吧.

2009-06-20T23:55:00.008+08:00

乐, 赶快回家吧. 小辉,现在很担心你. 真的.
有什么事情等彼此静下心来再好好一起面对一起解决问题.
双方各自都有错. 可是暂时不管是谁对谁错.

你现在先回来,好么?
你一个人呆在外头独自承受着什么东东?
两个人的感情,两个人一起面对.两个人一起解决呀.

你为什么把所有负担都自己扛? 那个才不是负担!!
那是因为你们相爱必须面对的种种问题.
所以你们一定要一起解决.
你认为小辉对你付出了这么多,你不想让他再成为他的负担,
所以自己把所有事情都独自面对么?
那你就错了!! 彻底地错了!!
你现在消失不见, 说要一个人静一静.
好, 我让你静一静. 可现在这么晚了, 就不能回去让人放心么?

你现在是面对什么事情?
回家吧. 不止小辉在担心你.
我也一样担心你. 还有好多好多支持你们的人.

*乐, 不要独自承受.一起解决问题.
两个人的感情,两个人一起面对.两个人一起解决.
天啊...好想现在冲去北京捉你到小辉面前让你们好好解决问题.

还有不要忘了我说过的话. 真的. 我当时是怎么和你说的.
你一定要加油. 我给你的祝福.
你不是说我给的祝福, 让你的勇气和信心加倍了么?

天啊, 让我有双翅膀飞去北京帮小辉找乐乐.

乐, 抱歉. 昨晚你EMAIL给我,
我竟然以为是FB的东东,所以选择置之不理.
没想到搞到凌晨, 我要下的时候,才去看INBOX.
天啊, 你很早就SEND EMAIL给我说了.
我怎么现在才发觉呢? 你们现在可好?
发个短讯给我吧. 你可知道我们昨晚可担心了好久...

Dance ! Subaru~

2009-06-19T17:39:00.008+08:00

I watched this movie -- ( Dance ! Subaru ) today. It's a nice and touching japanese movie. Besides the movie theme song -- BOLERO sing by TVXQ! , they also 'KE CHUAN' in the movie too. Wow... I'm so shock and excited when TVXQ! is coming out in the movie.

Synopsis of this movie :

Subaru and her twin brother Kazuma share a dream in becoming ballet dancers, but their father discourages their passion. After Kazuma's death from a hereditary illness, dancing became Subaru's only happiness and she yearns to lose herself in dance. Her life takes a dramatic turn when she runs into cabaret owner Isuzu, who recognizes the talent in Subaru and trains her. But to become a professional ballerina, Subaru has to overcome harsher challenges than just merely satisfying cabaret drunkards.
(Source: Cinema Online)

Lele, keep smiling...

2009-06-17T23:22:00.009+08:00

First thing, I want to say is,
I'm so sorry that I have a long time never updated my blog.

Today, I post it because I have something to tell someone.

Lele, I wish you happiness and healthy always with him and I'm so happy that you're willing to tell me a lot of things between you and him. Ignore whatever they say. Hui, is the one you need to care about and please do love him. Hui, he really loves you. Althought I don't know who is him, but I can feel it when you telling me all those stuff between you and him. I know you are 'thirst' of getting wishes from everyone but that is not easy. So, you and Hui must do it and let them know. Especially your parents, is a good news if you can get wishes from them. I'll pray for you. I know you can do it, HAHA.

Another thing. I'm so suprise to heard it from you. J.Laws and Luo Luo are your friends. HAHA. The world is so small. Actually, is not the world small. Is, you all are in the same country and same state. No wonder I saw J.law and luo luo photos in your msn display picture. ^^

Well, Lele.... keep smiling.
WHENEVER.WHEREVER.and WHATEVER is happened.
Thanks for your post that you mentioned me in your blog.
[ You're welcome. Hope you can get a lot of wishes from your friends.]
I'm so happy NOW. haha. I think I can't get sleep tonight.

感谢来自中国的十巡

2009-03-14T20:12:00.004+08:00

好久没更新了. 等了很久的你们, 先说声抱歉了!

这个POST要感谢来自中国的十巡,
谢谢他赠送一部以我为女主角的小说.
当然少不了男主角 --- 金在中 [东方神起]
由于这部小说正在连载中, 所以等这部小说完结后,
我会把整个小说PO在这里供你们阅读.
________________________________

这2个星期内, 学校在忙着准备昨天的MALAY & ENGLISH WEEK CLASS COMPETITION !我们英文是唱I'M YOURS 的ACCAPELLA, 马来文是唱JOGET ? 虽然过程真的发生了不愉快的事情, 不过我希望这件事情很快就会一笔勾销了. 至于比赛的成绩我们只能说很意外~! 我们竟然拿了第二和第三名~ 恭喜恭喜~

我也在昨天注册了东方神起在大马[东方神起全球第三个官方网]正式加入会员.
希望能让身在韩国的LSM大人[SM社长]知道其实马来西亚也有仙后的存在.
神起今年能否来马开唱是我现在最在意的事情~

还有上个星期是CARTENE 的生日!
** 祝福你和你的'白白'幸福地过生活.

最重要的是恭喜我姐姐在SPM获取好成绩!! [9A] 所以现在开始我也要加倍努力读书,虽然父母没有给我压力,也没要求我要好过姐姐,可是我还是会尽力的考好成绩.

MY-TVXQ! Official TVXQ! Fan Club in Malaysia

2009-03-01T10:35:00.003+08:00

3rd Asia Tour Concert - Mirotic in Seoul !!

2009-02-20T16:26:00.014+08:00

TVXQ! holding their 3rd Asia Tour Concert - Mirotic in Seoul !!

Friday - 20.2.2009 -- 7pm

Saturday - 21.2.2009 -- 7pm

Sunday - 22.2.2009 -- 4pm

Besides Seoul, they will hold their 3rd Asia Tour Concert - Mirotic in Beijing, Shanghai, Taipei and Bangkok. The list has not included MALAYSIA !! I'm ANGRY-ing because of TVXQ! not coming to Malaysia. The reason is Malaysia organiser and sponser don't want help TVXQ! having their concert here. Cassiopeia in Malaysia pay all their hardwork to keep finding sponser that can help TVXQ! come to Malaysia. But they're nothing going to change. OK! I don't mind. If the concert in Thailand or Taiwan will be held after my SPM, I'm decided to fly there for watching their concert. I don't think the concert will be late until finish my SPM. So the conclusion is I cant watch their concert and I need to wait another 1 year, 2 years, 3 years or more than that. * crying

I miss TVXQ! so much. Especially my Jae Joong. We had been apart more than 1 year. I'm not going anyway. I'm here waiting for you coming to Malaysia. Jae Joong, do you know how much I Love you ?

3rd Asia Tour Concert - Mirotic 's poster !!

Happy Birthday to my Brother & Chang Min

2009-02-18T16:35:00.007+08:00

Today is my little brother 12 years old birthday.

We didn't go out celebrate with him, we just buy a cake. Then we let him make wishes and blew the candle. Nothing special. Just a normal birthday for him. As a sister, I did not know what he like ? or he love ? But the one thing I knew is he LOVES playing online games !! *haha So he didn't receive any present from me but his classmates did.

Anyway, I'm going to sing a birthday song to him. And wish him can accomplish his goal this year especially UPSR !!

Happy Birtyday to U

Happy Birtyday to Zi Fan

Happy Birtyday to U

Another Birthday BOY --- Chang Min !!

Chang Min turns 20 years old become more mature and stronger. Althought you are the youngest in TVXQ! but please do not BULLY your members !! They are so pityful especially my Jae Joong !! Well, you all will having concerts on this FRIDAY, SATURDAYand SUNDAY !! So please be careful and do not do something dangerous. Wish you all the best !!

What makes A Malaysian A Malaysian ?

2009-02-16T19:05:00.009+08:00

I saw an article when I surf on the forum. Someone post this,then I copy and paste it here. Sharing this article for you all. FUNNY but TRUTH article. After finish reading, please give me your opinion and post it as a comment !!

1. You can name all the players from the the English Premier League, but ask you to name one football player from Malaysia , one name also cannot come out.
2. When StreamyX come, you complain StreamyX too slow. When Maxis Broadband come, you complain Maxis Broadband always disconnects. When WiMax come, you complain Wimax too expensive. In the end, you say StreamyX still the best lah.
3. When toll price increase, you complain. When petrol price increase, you complain. When you go Starbucks buy RM10 coffee, NO COMPLAINTS.
4. When you cannot find parking in a shopping mall and have to walk very far, you complain. When you go inside the shopping mall and there's SALE , run from one end of 1Utama to the other also NO COMPLAINTS.
5. You are always late. And the excuse you give when you're late is always either:
(a) traffic jam (b) no transport or (c) cannot find parking.
6. You have a parent who force you to take science stream in high school, study engineering in Uni, then when you graduate, they ask you to forget everything you learnt in Uni and do commerce.
7. You know someone who can specially develop an angmoh accent when speaking to a American / British / Australian.
8. You complain against the government in kopitiam, you talk loud loud. Leave anonymous comments on blogs, you also talk loud loud. Attend ceremah by DAP, you shout loud loud. Then when Opposition organise a protest and ask you to go, you dun wan. Scared later kena tangkap by ISA.
9. Every year on the 30th April, you are one of the people below queueing up last minute to submit your tax return at the IRB.
10. When you pay RM10 for something that costs RM1, you blame the Chinese.
11. When a government service is too slow, you blame the Malays.
12. When a building is not good and collapsed, you blame the Indians.
13. When a Chinese student won a scholarship, you say "Wah! Very clever hor?" When a Malay student won a scholarship, you say "Aiya! Of course lah! He Malay mah!"
14. When an angmoh stranger kiss you on the cheek to say hello, you very happy. When a Malaysian guy kiss you on the cheek to say hello, you slap him.

At a Glance, please !!!

2009-02-12T14:49:00.003+08:00

＝ Money　＝
↓

It can buy a House
But not a Home

It can buy a Bed
But not Sleep

It can buy a Clock　
But not Time

It can buy you a Book
But not Knowledge

It can buy you a Position
But not Respect

It can buy you Medicine
But not Health

It can buy you Blood
But not Life

It can buy you Sex
But not Love
　
So you see money isn't everything.
I tell you all this because I am your Friend,
and as your Friend I want to take away your pain and suffering.....
so send me all your money and I will suffer for you

A true Friend than me you will never find.
CASH ONLY PLEASE
__________________________

So my dearest friends, please give me all your money !!
$_$ I love MONEY !!!

W890i ! My favourite Mobile Phone !!

2009-02-09T09:50:00.006+08:00

Last year I wish I can get a new mobile phone from my dad but it was not happen. T___T But now my dad bought a new mobile phone as a present for my sister. It was W890i !! My favourite mobile phone !! I love it so much. But the W890i is not mine. * cry again !! Sometimes I wonder mobile phone is so important for me to contact someone in emergency. Now moblie phone is not important for me because I have no one to contact everyday. I just need it when emergency !! Sometimes is too hard for me to find public phone around me !! Even though I find it, the public phone sure SPOILED !! So maybe I will get a new mobile phone after SPM !! I want my dad give me a new mobile phone as my BIRTHDAY PRESENT !! ^^

** Recently I like this photo FREAKING MUCH !!

*** Monthly exam start on this Saturday class replacement !! This monthly exam paper is get from goverment and I haven start do my FORM 4 revision !!

SM Town Concert Live in Bangkok + Open House !!

2009-02-08T09:55:00.013+08:00

Yesterday night all the SM entertainment's artists having their SM Town Concert Live in Bangkok. The concert start at 6.30pm till 10.45pm [Bangkok Hour]. Artists who attended this concert are TVXQ!, Super Junior, Shinee, Girl Generation, The Grace, Zhang Li Yin and so on. Before the concert begin, all the fans waited outside the stadium with their banners !! All the astists celebrated Yun Ho's 23th birthday too. Some of the artists used the birthday cake and paste it on Yun Ho's face. Cute ! ^^ Especially Chang Min [one of the TVXQ! member] did that to Yun Ho !! OMG !! Chang Min don't even scare he will boikot the Leader of TVXQ!. And my Jae Joong took off his cloth when the perfomance of RISING SUN. Oh, all the fans screamed loudly !! At the end, Xiah said SEE YOU TOMORROW to all the fans. [ Xiah likes to show his english !!]

* lots of Fan and the banners *

* Celebrated Yun Ho's Birthday *

* TVXQ! dance and sing *

Open House

Yesterday, my mum's friend Auntie Serene's 25th wedding anniversary + Open house !! So we having our dinner in her house. After the dinner, my sister and I strolling around her house while my mum chatting with her gang. My sister keep snaping when she saw something special in her house. Some of the clients " Du Bo ". They are so many rich people at there, so they are not like us [ I mean My friends and me use 10sen, 20 sen or 50 sen], the smaller amount is RM 5 or RM 10 the bigger amount is RM 50. Some of then even use RM100 for one round. OMG !! Well, I'm free at there so i decided to join them and play few rounds. But I forgot to bring my money !! *sigh My mum won't allow me to waste money like that so I'm not borrow money form her. So the conclusion is I just saw them play in front of me !! * sigh again. If I'm lucky, I can earn a lot of money. * This is not a good attitude for earn money!! Then I sat at there view the Auntie Serene's photobook where her family traveled to Japan during the school holiday. After that, is the time for taking photo with her family in front the 25th wedding anniversary's cake. Many people took photo with her and her husband. Keep strolling around her house. Playing firecrackers with the children. Auntie Serene bought a lot of firecrackers and put them at the garden let us play. Wow, this is rich people's action !! Some of the clients watched movie in her house 's mini size cinema. Lalalala...we played and keep strolling until 11.30pm. I saw my primary school friend -- Andy Low when I get to go. I'm so suprised to saw him because before i attend the party I asked him on MSN. He said he is not free to go. Well, I saw some of my school EX-FORM 5 too !!

* I will upload the photos later. Im not free !! Tuition-ing !!

Happy Birthday to Shyan !

2009-02-07T14:54:00.010+08:00

I have a lot of friend having their birthday on this month. February and March are the most people born on the month. Included 7 of February is Loh Chin Shyan's 19th birthday. A friend I knew since I'm Form 3. He is a cutie, childish and playful guy. Well, long time no see him almost 1 year ago. I wish he can achieves his goal and hope his dreams come true !!

Happy Birthday to U !

Happy Birthday to Chin Shyan !

Happy Birthday to U !

Omedetogozaimasu !!

Happy Birthday to Yun Ho Oppa ~

2009-02-06T16:47:00.005+08:00

Happy Birthday to My lovely Yun Ho ~
Our leader of TVXQ! *** Uknow Yun Ho ***

Today is Yun Ho's 23th years old birthday !!
Omedetogozaimasu ~~
Wish you all the best and hope you & your members will be more GAMBATEH in year 2009. And TVXQ! 4th Japan album 'The Secret Cord' will gets the ORICON TOP 1. Other than that, I wish that TVXQ! can come to Malaysia have their 3rd tour MIROTIC concert in Malaysia !!! I promised I will attend the concert no matter how busy am I, included SPM !!!

** I just know that Jae Joong real birthday is on 4 of February. His mother just told the truth and the reason to the official that she don't want his IC number is on 4 of February because that day is not lucky for him. So, his mother decided to change his IC number birthday to 26 of January. =.='' Jae Joong just elder than Yun Ho 2 days. Hooray !! ^^ Both of them are AQUARIUS !!

Lastly, i would like to say SAENGIL CHUKHA HAMNIDA !!

Happy Birthday to Mabel !!

2009-02-02T10:44:00.008+08:00

Happy Birthday to my Beloved Friend -- Mabel !!!

Our birthday girl ---- MABEL turns 17 years old !!

Happy Birthday to U
Happy Birthday to U
Happy Birthday to Mabel
Happy Birthday to U

Congragulation !! Omedetogozaimasu !!
Wait for our suprise !!

We are the gang ~~
[ Mabel, me, Cartene & Zhen Jin ]

Boys Over Flower

2009-02-01T11:53:00.025+08:00

Ya, recently ME keep watching the korean's drama !!
>>>> 'Boys Over Flower'. Nowadays, this drama is so popular until it edit to korea version. The original is Japanese comic. First they had been using for Taiwanese's drama and Japanese 's Drama !! Taiwanese called it 'Meteor Garden' whereas Japanese called it 'Boys over Flowers' !! So many version, but i like the japan version the most !! It's short and interesting, not like taiwan version...long and CRAP !! Korea version is the latest one. Now still processing. Keep chasing the drama.

I Love Gu Jun Pyo !![ The korea version DaoMingshi-Tsukasa !!] This is the first version who made me fall in love with the Tsukasa. Other version mostly i fall in love with Hanazarui ~~ But this version NOT like other version !! hehe ^^
And, this drama's OST sounds good.

Happy Birthday to Jae Joong Oppa ~

2009-01-26T10:56:00.007+08:00

Saengil Chukha Hamnida !
Saengil Chukha Hamnida !
Sarang Hanun Jae Joong oppa ~
Saengil Chukha Hamnida !

Happy Birthday to Jae Joong...

Omedeto gozaimasu ~~ ^^

Jae Joong, now you are 23 years old. hehe ^^ although you get older and older but never mind, i will always love you ~ You are my only love !!! Muackss... I miss you so much ... When can i see you again, my dear ?

TVXQmy Gathering !!

2009-01-12T17:42:00.003+08:00

Date : 17.1.2009
Venue : Starbucks, Timesquare [ main entrance, 2nd floor ]
Time : 2pm

Aim : Celebrate Jae Joong, Yun Ho and Chang Min's birthday +
Chinese New Year + Forum 2 years anniversary +
TVXQ! 5 years anniversary !!

If you have the 520 T-shirt, please wear it when u attend the gathering. So that, you can join the 520 vol 1.1 special activity. But if you don't have the T-shirt, we still welcome you to attend the gathering. And we will sell the 520 T-shirt [ limited Edition] at there too.

Activities :
1. Introduce.
2. eat & drink.
3. Gaming Time !! [ Prizes : poster, album & desk calender !!]
[ Attention !! All prizes are official's goods !!]

Chating with a friend ~

2009-01-11T10:09:00.007+08:00

Yesterday night, i saw a friend -- Yip Lai Zhen 's display name in msn. [ a friend in school, never chat before althought last time both of us are prefect. Now she had became a student. ] She said she like photography~ Me too. So i decided chat with her. Before i chat with her, i think that maybe she wont reply me, because we are not so closer at all. Then, i asked her... Are you interesting on photography? half a minute, she reply me. She said Ya, of course. And asked me , am i interesting on photography too ?? My answer is YES !! I love taking Photo on beautiful view !!! Then, we keep on chating~ She said maybe she will study photography course in Taiwan. And her parent agree with her decision. At the end, before i offline...i told her. We never chat before no matter in reality or Msn, hope when we meet each other at school, still can chat like that . ^^

Suprise & Happy !!

2009-01-07T20:35:00.009+08:00

Guys, guess what's thing happen makes me so happy and suprised today ?? ZHEN JIN is BACK !! Wow... I can't realized that i could see her again in Minda Ceria. But she is in front of me !! She becomes beautiful, hair longer than last time. Since she shifted house to Country Height [ Don't know how to spell the name she lives now !! Sounds like that ~] far away from here, she never attend the class again. So, that time when i saw her... I screamed out her name !! Cartene said she almost want to cry. Because we had long time no see each other. Ya, forgot to say... Wy-Quin back too. Our gang created since Form 2 !! Members : Me, Cartene, Mabel, Zhen Jin, Wy-quin...[ Ee Leng & Yi Lin start tuition in MC since Form 3 !!] Yeah !! now is complete !! I love you guys !! We will be apart after SPM, some of them maybe start their courses oversea...some of them DON'T KNOW !! I will stay here to complete my college's life !! Maybe I will go to Australia for 1 year or 2 years to have the Degree certificate !! Then, i will visit Cartene who will be study in Melbourne and stay there or maybe migrate to there.

ZHEN JIN !!! I have many things chat with U !!! How was your Vacation in JAPAN ???

*** The poem i wrote to my Jae Joong had been post it on my school magazine !! Hooray, I want everybody knows I LOVE Jae Joong so much !!!

I received my ROXY pencil case today !!

2009-01-06T18:06:00.005+08:00

Yeah, based on the tittle i received my ROXY pencil case today !! Thanks to Vee Vien, because she is the one who help me bought the pencil case. I waited this item more than 1 months. 27 Nov 2008, Roxy having 50% discount for all the ROXY's members !!! [Vee Vien borrowed the member card from shwu ling.] After bought the pencil case, 4 days later... Vee Vien went to Taiwan for a long vacation.[22days] My sister's friend who lived behind my house. Hui Jing, she having South Australia Matriculation [SAM] in Taylor's !! Vee Vien too... but they are not taking the same subjects. Hopefully, Hui Jing meet Vee Vien today. Thatwise, i can received the pencil case today. Maybe i wont use this pencil case now. I will keep it and use it when I having my tuition in Martin and Kasturi on weekends or holidays. Thank you so much, Vee Vien !!

Mr. LubDup absent TODAY !!! [ my biology teacher in Kasturi tuition center ] This is the first time Mr. Freddy taught us BIOLOGY !!! wow... Mr. Freddy teach biology better than Mr. Lub Dup. I LOVE Mr. Freddy teaching techniques !! More interesting than Mr. Lub Dup !! Mr. Lub Dup is too boring when he teaching and he didn't teach sentence by sentence just in the shortcut form !!
I DON'T LIKE HIM TEACH ME BIOLOGY !!

The 1st day of school ~

2009-01-05T14:45:00.013+08:00

well, no any feelings at all .
i got the phobia to school, what's the reason?? Yeah, is SPM![ I wonder if i could do revision when the school holiday, maybe i wont get the phobia !! ] I'm regret that i didn't do any revision when the school holiday. BECAUSE !! We having exam on 17 Jan 2009 !! f***. Hell school !! Why we have exam so earlier ??? i thought the exam is Lembaga Peperiksaan give us, then i asked my form teacher. She said not Lembaga Peperiksaan !!swt & f***. Our school's teacher too free when school holiday ??? so they have time to choose questions for our exam !!??

well, our form teacher still same --- Pn. Nur Fadhilah ~
[ am i spell wrong the name ??] almost all the teacher same as last year, just few of them transfer to another states so we have 5 subjects are not same teacher as last year ~ EST !!! we need not to study EST !!! because SPM didnt have EST subject !!! but the bad news is the EST change it to SIVIK !! OMG ~ i dont like sivik !! Sivik is more tough than P.Moral !!

And i received a BAD news too~ For all the students start from 2009, we have been chosen to attend the National Service !!! No Way !! I dont want attend the NS !! *_* Sucks Program !!! I dont want live with Malays or Indians !! I want FREEDOM !! 3 months !! Cant shopping, cant online, cant blogging too !!! but the important problem is I hate the activities !! I dont want SUN BURN !!!

Haiz, they said people who born on second of Dec is happy go lucky person !! but am i the person they said ?? nonono... im not good luck in this year ~~
2009, my unlucky year !!

tommorow School reopen ~!!

2009-01-04T12:20:00.006+08:00

Goodbye, my coloured nails ~
Goodbye, my long finger nails~

After SPM, i will polish my nails again with colourful ~

Goodbye, my nap time ~
Goodbye, my online time ~

I will decrease my nap time & online time.
Of course my blogging time too.

Goodbye, my TVXQ! ~
Goodbye, my forum's friends ~

I will miss you all, especially my Jae Joong ~

Jae Joong, I ❤ U ~!
I swear to U that i will never ever betray U !
because you are the only one I ❤ !!!!!

Goodbye, everyone ~
Wish everyone all the best ~!
Including the SPM students !!!!!!!!!!

豆包+花花 = 豆花。我❤豆花。

2009-01-03T17:12:00.014+08:00

这就是豆花。

金在中，一個為了唱歌拋棄了一切的孩子。

14歲，為了夢想，他離開了家，離開了學校，
一個人在首爾過著慘不忍睹的生活。他知道，他必須堅持！

15歲，在公司當著數百名中的一個練習生的時候，
在他最艱苦的時候，他認識了一個小他10天的孩子，叫鄭允浩！

16歲，在一起4年的女朋友為了前途狠心的拋棄了他。
他過上了除了那個叫鄭允浩的舍友一無所有的日子！

17歲，他和鄭允浩很幸運的被選進了一個組合，
雖然名字還沒有，但他們都很開心！
他是隊裡最大的，所以他是隊長。
但是，那個叫鄭允浩的卻對他說，當隊長很累的，
而且你不會說話也不會處理關係，我幫你分擔，好嗎？
他莫名其妙的就答應了！

18歲，他們的組合被叫做東方神起，非常響亮的名字。
他們終於一起站上了舞台，一起出了專集，
一起實現了夢想。當他在台上台下膽怯的時候，
鄭允浩就會很自然的拉著他的手，對著他笑一下。
如同融化寒冰般的微笑。

19歲，他漸漸知道了當隊長究竟有多累，有多麼的難。
他開始納悶，為什麼鄭允浩願意幫他抗下這麼大個擔子。
他開始對鄭允浩無微不至的關心，好來彌補這一切。
他開始習慣性的把眼神飄向鄭允浩！

20歲，因為跳舞他傷了腿，而且無法痊癒。
同時也停止上台5個月。他不甘心，他不想放棄，
他不願意夢想就此破裂。鄭允浩卻天天陪著他，
開導他，逗他笑。他坐輪椅的時候，
鄭允浩老是推著他，他拄枴杖的時候，
鄭允浩總是喜歡抱著他。
那個叫鄭允浩的總是盡自己最大的能力保護著他。
而他，似乎也喜歡著被他保護，
老是躲在鄭允浩的後面。

在20歲的最後一個月，他們得了年終大獎，
他第一次看見那個像保護神一樣的鄭允浩在他的懷裡哭的像個孩子。
他這才想起來，原來鄭允浩比自己還要小10天。
於是，他緊緊的抱著鄭允浩，
把自己在眼眶裡打轉的淚水嚥了回去！

21歲，在舞台上從來沒有哭過的他，
因為鄭允浩雙腳受傷而在演唱會上潸然淚下。
這個時候他才發現，鄭允浩對他而言有多麼的重要，
他有多麼的依賴鄭允浩。
第三張專集發佈的時候鄭允浩被人下了毒，
當天晚上他在醫院單獨呆了8個小時，
誰也不知道他們說了什麼，做了什麼。
只知道第二天的現場上，他的眼睛腫的像葡萄。
他馬上就要過22歲生日了，
也許他的願望是弄清他和鄭允浩之間的感情到底是什麼，
是友情，是親情，還是愛情，又或者都不是。
不過有一點他非常清楚，金在中不能沒有鄭允浩！

鄭允浩，一個喜歡裝大人的孩子。

14歲，他在學校上學，不知道成績怎麼樣，
只是個很平凡的孩子。如果非要找出一點不同的話，
他從小就練合氣道，並且打算參加世界大賽。
哦，對了，他跳舞跳的不錯。

15歲，在世界合氣道大賽上他得了第3名。
之後參加了SM的選秀活動，
並很出乎自己意料的得了最佳舞蹈獎。
於是，他順理成章的進入了SM做練習生，
認識了一個叫金在中的，大自己10天的孩子。
他覺得金在中看起來好冷，不喜歡。

16歲，他拚命的練習舞蹈，
還發現那個金在中真的好像個傻瓜，
不會說話，老犯迷糊，不善於人際關係，
很可愛。所以他老是在有意無意的幫金在中。

17歲，他們被選如了同一個組合，
因為金在中大他10天，所以是隊長。
為此他十分擔心，因為他知道，
那個金在中的性格根本不適合當隊長。
掙扎了一番後，他對金在中說，我來替你當隊長。
在這方面他還是有點自信的。金在中沒有問為什麼就同意了。

18歲，他們以東方神起的名字出道。
他的隊長做的非常的好，因為他不能讓金在中失望。
而且他好像極度的喜歡調戲和逗金在中，真的很好玩。

19歲，為了好好的做隊長，
他將自己的所有的孩子氣全隱藏起來，
他將自己所有的潛力全釋放出來。
他開始學會說官方語言，
他開始適應娛樂圈的邇虞我詐，
他開始努力的保護全隊的每一個人，
他開始把自己變成一個成熟的男人，
他開始習慣性的刻意去照顧金在中。

20歲，金在中連連的事故搞的他焦頭爛額，
他漸漸的愛不管何時何地都站在金在中的前面，
也許只有這樣才可以避免金在中的受傷。
他為了金在中擋下了太多的事事非非。
但他卻心甘情願。金在中受傷後無論到哪裡，
他都習慣從後面抱著金在中，因為怕金在中再次跌到。
年終大獎時說完感謝詞，他抱著金在中，
哭的快暈了過去，
終於把這麼多年來心底的委屈全發洩了出來。
其實，他也是在硬撐，他也會累啊！
那一刻，他的身邊只允許那個叫金在中的呆著。

21歲，從拔壓到咽喉炎，到胃炎，到雙腳韌帶破裂。
他渾身上下幾乎全是傷，就算是這樣，
一看到金在中他就會笑，笑的很開心，很幸福。
金在中犯錯或是說錯話的時候他那種寵溺的眼神，
彷彿是在看畢生最珍藏的寶貝一樣。
中毒事件後，他不愛說話了，也不愛上鏡頭了，
卻依然寵愛那個金在中。

馬上他也要過22歲生日了，他想要什麼呢，
是想做一輩子金在中的保護神呢？
還是想就這樣一直把調戲金在中當做人生的樂趣呢？
也許他只想對金在中說，我這輩子不能沒有你了。

豆花，一個當局者迷，旁觀者更迷的事件。

14歲，他們都還是陌生人，連一次的擦肩而過都沒有。
他們過著只屬於自己的生活，
根本沒有想過以後會發生什麼。

15歲，他們知道了對方，認識了對方，
從此走上了一條將會很辛酸的道路。

16歲，他們漸漸的瞭解了對方，習慣了對方。
在每天只休息幾個小時，幻想自己美夢成真的日子裡，
他們成為彼此的依靠，彼此的動力。

17歲，他們知道，他們的夢想就快要一同實現了。
於是，他們決定以後要風雨無阻的並肩走下去。
他們的眼裡有著他們自己的誓言，
自己的承諾，自己的堅持。

18歲，他們終於站在了期盼已久，光芒四射的舞台。
所有的艱辛，苦難，犧牲，疼痛原來都有一個人陪著自己嘗。
所有的喜悅，開心，幸福，成功原來都有一個人陪著自己分享。
他們看著對方的臉，深刻的感悟到了什麼叫甘苦與共！

19歲，在組合裡，他們一個是隊長，一個是主唱。
於是，不論是說話，行動，神態，表情，包括眼神，
他們都越來越有默契。
所有的肢體碰觸都沒有什麼特殊意義，
因為對他們而言，
這些僅僅是在一起怎麼多年的習慣罷了。
終於，在每一次不經意的相對一笑裡，
他們體會到了什麼是心有靈犀！

20歲，是最多風雨的一年。在金在中腿傷時期，
鄭允浩說：
「如果我所愛的人沒有了腿，那麼以後我就是你的腿。」
他做到了。對於他們兩之間，任何一個小小的諾言，
他們都會盡全力去實現。因為對方是他們最重要的人。
在這最困難的一年裡，在他們第一次得到年終大獎的時候，
他們又懂得了一個詞，不離不棄！

21歲，因為公司的禁令他們兩在舞台上，
鏡頭前都必須避閒。於是他們的接觸變的越來越少，
但是他們都非常明白對方在想些什麼。
不需要說話，更不需要做什麼動作，一個眼神就夠了。
只要一個眼神，彼此之間的一切全部知道。
這回，他們學會了只是愛你，無關承諾，因為距離，所以長久。

我最爱的世纪拥抱。甜蜜的感觉。

我爱的男人。帅？可爱？

后记：

很感动。我承认我是豆花饭。
我真的很爱豆花。
虽然很多人都不赞成豆花或则是其他王道。
但是我还是跟着自己的意思走。
我爱豆花，赞成他们。
即使是禁忌之恋，我也赞同。
羡慕他们的感情。只需要6年就能那么熟悉彼此。
也许也是我的自私，所以我才赞同豆花在一起。
要我看着我爱的人和其他女生在一起，
我想所有人都很难做到吧~
对，我也是其中一位。因为自私，所以赞同。
当然，豆花之间的感情也是我赞同的另一个原因。

**我要的就只有金在中。
我要金在中做我的男朋友。老公。
要相爱到永远。爱上他，我很幸福。
我怕我和他在一起，我无法给予他要的幸福。
如果做不成恋人，我愿和他做朋友。一辈子的朋友。
所以，我宁愿让他和允浩在一起。
至少和允浩在一起，他是幸福的。

Christmas' eve ~ ^^

2008-12-24T22:10:00.004+08:00

今天早上小靖就和姐姐飘到TS去了。
姐姐的朋友都聚集在TS的大门口了。
话说他们都想要看电影可是最近没什么电影看啊~！
所以就决定不去看，转移目标去Bowling。
酷~！刚刚开始的时候小靖还很厉害的，
怎知道最后就输到很惨~！午餐时间就到SushiKing，
因为人多的关系就分开两桌，各谈各的~
在Sushiking就呆到下午才走。四处逛逛~
小靖想买球鞋。看到一个球鞋银色的~！
大爱那双鞋可是最大的Size也只有男生可以穿。
不知道为什么最近大爱金属色，不管是金色还是银色。

逛逛就到了傍晚，享用完了晚餐就原本等爸妈一起来CountDown。
怎知道，临时不来了我们只好回家了~
气死小靖了，无聊的圣诞~！

* 小靖今天身体超不舒服的~！
为什么呢？因为今天第一天生理期啊~！
痛死小靖了。只好买止痛药。不然会晕倒在路边。
永远也不会生小孩。因为生小孩的痛是生理期的20倍。
生理期的痛，真的痛到可以在地上打滚。
没有生理痛的朋友，小靖还真的很羡慕你们。

** 惊喜~！收到圣诞节卡片。
同样是来自小靖的好朋友--朱静宜
谢谢咯。很准时得到小靖的家。

I ❤ my primary school 's classmates

2008-12-23T09:46:00.005+08:00

才隔了一天，小靖就已经想念你们了~！
不知道你们有没有想念小靖呢？希望有啊~！
喜欢和你们见面，虽然在没有见面的期间也没什么交流。
但是往往聚会的时候就特别有东西聊，
并不会因为之间没有交流完全疏远了感情这回事。

小学同学，虽然久久才见面一次。
但是小靖很珍惜每一次的见面。
不过每一次聚会注定是男生比女生多。
再加上每次都不会齐人。是没被通知到呢还是不想来啊？
不过虽说很多没来，但是小靖还是认为少数人群，比全班都到要好吧。
因为如果全班都到了，个个提议不同那岂不是又要分散自己各有各的聚会。
那还来干嘛？不过还真的希望有奇迹出现的那一天。
希望所有人都能到场啦。毕竟中五毕业后，很多人都会选择到国外读书。
到时候要聚会，恐怕很难相聚吧~！

小学同学会

2008-12-22T19:00:00.013+08:00

今天，11早上左右就抵达TS~
幸好迟到，不然又要等很久。
男生每次聚会都是迟到的，气死~！幸好有经验~！
这次的聚会只有8个人。比之前少了。
本来有一个Hans来了，可是自己又和其他人去Bowling了~

我们先到Old Town喝茶。
之后到S&J买礼物给今天的寿星可是又没到现场~
在选礼物时，和Cartene，TienHui去逛街留下男生在选礼物。
回到去时，他们已经选了要买灯给他。
当然买了礼物，大家还不知道要去哪里。
首先是要看电影可是又没有鬼戏所以只好去唱K。
第一次和小学朋友去唱K，哇~！幼稚到~！
在里面足足唱了4个小时半~！！！
声音完全沙哑~！个个都傻到~！唉，无法形容~！
唱华语歌唱到英文歌之后又唱马来歌，儿歌，新年歌，圣诞歌都跑出来~！
哈，当然也有我独自SOLO的HUG~！嘻嘻~

幼稚的例子：

1. 唱着K的时候，某些人就会在那里作弄上厕所的人。
- 不是关灯，就是拉着门不让他出来。[ 可怜那些受害者~！呵呵]
2. 唱着K，要好好地唱一首歌。却被男生的声音乱唱~
[ 噪音四处~！没关系，一起唱，乐趣多~！]
3. 男生依然还是比我更幼稚~！嘻嘻~！
4. 在唱完一首歌准备离开的时候，不知道谁放了一个臭屁搞到全部人夺门而出~！臭死了~！竟然有一个朋友说是K房里面因为看到我们唱了那么久还不出来就放了一个臭屁机器赶我们出来~！这样的理由都可以~！
5. 唱歌都可以唱到儿歌，马来歌，圣诞歌，新年歌。
6. Burk ‘炸人’炸到很厉害。不过想起来还蛮幼稚的~！哈~！

大约5.45就离开了，在离开之前在圣诞树下来个合影！

男生的大合照

* Organiser 约我们来，自己却不见踪影~ =.="
话说那对情侣竟然放我们飞机去PaTuo~！

** 唱K之前，遇到Chris~ 回家的途中，遇到旭权~！
呵呵，权权还是一样帅~！在LRT的时候，遇到男人婆~ Kahoe！

*** 好像生病了~ 不是普通的感冒发烧~！而是很严重的病~！
不敢告诉爸妈~！这个病持续了蛮久的~！有2年多了吧~
刚开始还以为只是轻微的，最近蛮严重了~！

1219 去年的今天收到幸福的圣诞礼物~

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和男女主角还有幸运儿的合照。

傻傻地看着眼前的男女主角。 [ 被偷拍的照片~！]

和另外两位幸运儿在988等候厅合照纪念。

988 的外观。话说里面那间房间是神起曾经上过988时，所待过的房间哦~
呵呵，竟然能和神起那么幸运有机会上988啊~！

988 外观。

里面那间房间就能通往去直播室了。

话说今天小靖想起去年的今天，幸福满满的一天~!
去年的今天，小靖因为Call In成功赢取和换换爱男女主角见面的机会。起初小靖还不知道自己赢到什么东西~！原来是小靖在所有Call In成功的人之中，被抽中参与只有3个幸运儿才能参加的活动。除此之外，小靖还和其他Call In成功的人一起参加第二天的换换爱独家剧迷聚会。

当然去年的今天是小靖拉了姐姐一同去988电台和男女主角见面。在见面之前小靖已经准备了礼物要和男女主角交换圣诞礼物。到了现场时已经是晚上8时整了~ 小靖和姐姐还有其他2位幸运儿在等候厅等待。大约45左右小靖就看见男女主角从门口进来。完全呆住了，当场傻眼啊~！他们三个--王传一，贺军翔还有杨丞琳就在小靖不到一米的距离。幸好小靖没有扑过去因为那实在太丢脸了。他们和我们打招呼后，就进入直播室了。我们继续在外等候，过了半个小时，我们被通知进入。姐姐只好在等候厅等我们。进到直播室除了看到男女主角之外，还看到在场的摄影师，记者还有小靖最爱的DJ之一，家艺~！坐在直播室里面，真的好拥挤哦~！因为好多报社的记者+摄影师都在里面。本来已经够小的直播室此时更拥挤。小靖就直对小美猛看。哈~！不知道是小靖的注视力太强了呢，小美竟然也望向小靖这里。和小靖做了个长达2-3分钟的眼神交射啊~ 完全是一直在看着对方，对方也在看着小靖的。电流就在当中穿射~ 是时候交换礼物了。家艺说可以走到想要交换礼物的对象面前交换。当然小靖是走到小美面前的。换了礼物后，小靖就拆开礼物。是一个圣诞老人的门挂装饰。小靖还拿到Rainie的亲笔签名圣诞卡片。Rainie写小靖的名字还蛮可爱的。之后其他2位也陆续交换了礼物。趁着广告时间我们就来进行一个大合照。首先有家艺和男女主角合影，之后再到我们幸运儿。在排着位子当中，某某幸运儿不小心踩到Rainie的鞋子。哈~！幸好Rainie没事啊~ 当然就开始拍摄了。好多照相机对着我们拍，都不知道要望那个镜头感觉自己好像走在星光大道上有好多摄影师对着小靖猛拍。

之后小靖就和其他2位幸运儿离开直播室了。找到了那位负责这场活动的工作人员。给了他照片就让他寄Email给小靖有关和男女主角合影的照片。小靖还遇到了一群保安人员，那天神起演唱会御用的保安人员啊。当然有谈谈关于神起当时的情况。在下楼准备迎接男女主角离开的时候，发现好多人为在外边。幸好我们是幸运儿，不许要和他们挤就能轻而易举的和那女主角们亲近。看到他们笑来之后，小靖和3位男女主角都说话交流了。传一问我们礼物满意吗？呵呵，还真贴心呢。小靖还当场直唤小美的名字。小美当场愣住了。他很奇怪小靖没说他的名字而是直说他的小名，咔咔 ^^

深夜了，小靖就和姐姐一起坐上爸妈的车回家了。